Iman Nedhiera

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Intensely passionate about photography and other artsy fartsy farts. An avid nature-lover. Highly obsessed with sunny afternoons and evenings, funky-looking clouds, and sunsets. Deeply infatuated with all things old, vintage, and kitschy. Highly sentimental. An enthusiast in baking, photography, and music :)


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Wednesday, August 15
6:32 PM

The weather's really cool and cloudy right now. My balcony door is open wide and I can feel the cool air rushing into the room and it's so cold and I just feel like being underneath my duvet and just sleeeeeeeep.


This song has been on repeat since I got back from class today. Somehow the rhythm and the whole feel of the song just suits the weather right now and I like the cool, calming vibe it gives me. Right now I just feel like going into the forest and just lie down on the wet ground, gazing at the foliage above in this cool weather. Nothing like a swig of fresh air when the weather's really cool.

I feel very relaxed today. Hm. Yayooooo. 



11:55 AM

Yesterday was beyond amazing. We had our presentations done for Graphic Communications and Alhamdulillah mine went well. We had to choose a phrase from one of our favourite songs and we had to come up with an illustration based on that phrase to be printed on a tshirt. The song that I chose was Cosmic Love by Florence and the Machine and this was what I came up with;



Not bad for quite a last minute work ey? Could've done better though hahah. My lecturer loved the whole thing, except for the font that I used for my phrase. The illustration itself is very loud and powerful (as said by my lecturer) but the font that I used kinda killed it all hahah. But all in all it went well. Hoping I won't fail! :)

Before our presentation, we had to wait in the lobby for our names to be called up. So while waiting, we snapped many pictures of everyone. Well, the ones with the cameras did. Some of my classmates brought their cameras along yesterday and they snapped photos of everyone and it was fun. Group photos here and there with these crazy lot.

After we were done with our presentation, a few girls from my class invited me to go out with them and I had so much fun! There were eight of us. We walked from our campus to the bazaar at Kerinchi near the Universiti LRT station (yes, we WALKED) and bought some food for Iftar. I got my favourite fried chicken from this tiny stall called Uncle Bob and it was delicioussssss! We spent about a good half our there and then we took the train to KLCC so that we could break our fast at the park. When we got to KLCC, we stopped by the surau to pray and then we headed off to Cold Storage to buy some drinks. By the time we got to the park it was raining, sadly. But we were lucky enough to find a spot that was relatively quite dry and the best part was that it was right in front of the water fountain! It was amazing.

The boys of Alam Bina were there as well but we were on separate trips. About 95% of them were present. It was like a school trip for them just because they were such a large group! Haha. They had their Iftar under a bridge while us girls had ours in front of the colourful water fountain :p


The beautiful and colourful water fountain!


After that we cleaned up our spot and then we headed off once again to the surau to pray. The surau was so crowded up to a point where you literally had to squeeze in order to get from one point to another. And since there were so many people in the surau, it got really hot. So after praying we walked around KLCC and by then I was nearly half dead lol. We stumbled upon some of the boys along the way haha.

We took the train back to Universiti LRT station and then we took the bus back to our campus. Most of us fell asleep in the train hahah. The bus ride was the scariest bus ride I've ever had! The driver was driving the bus too fast and each time we crossed a bump or a pothole, the bus would make such a loud rattling sound and it made me feel like as if the bus was going to fall apart anytime soon. It was so scary and when we arrived at our destination I realized that I was clenching my fist all along hahaha.

We were all so relieved to get back. It was such an amazingly fun day yesterday and I managed to get closer to a few of my classmates. We were all soaked with our sweat from all the walking plus the heat of the weather, and by the time we got back we were all sticky and smelly hahah. I showered extra long last night because I felt so sticky and dirty and I felt so much more rejuvenated after the shower. Slept in peace like a baby :')

All in all it was a really good day yesterday and I long for more days like that. It was worth all the sweat and tiredness, and we managed to tighten the bonds between us. I had so much fun yesterday :')



Sunday, August 12
10:22 PM


EPIIICCCCCC. This song is so hard to sing to. She uses like...a few different voices in one song and she switches her pitching a lot. DAMMMNN. Definitely one of my favourites.


Another one of my favourites. So calming and so...tranquilizing :)

This woman sure knows how to make good music D:



3:53 AM

I see many Muslim girls who've had their heads uncovered all this while, suddenly wear a hijab, covering their heads and their hair.

And then I see how beautiful they look, in their hijab, and I feel my heart melting.

And then I thought to myself, I want to be beautiful like them, too.

The want to change has been around in my head for quite a while now. I thought about my father, and how I desperately don't want him to end up in the raging fires of Hell in the afterlife, just because I have not been a good daughter. I talked to a good friend of mine about it, and she fully supports my decision and she told me how other people are supporting me as well. I'm flattered beyond words. Earlier today (or yesterday haha), after our Architectural Drawing class, I headed to her room and asked what seemed to be to be a weird request. The moment she heard what my request was, her face changed from being a tad bit skeptical, to a face that really melted my heart in a good way. So I tried it on, and it struck me how beautiful I looked (please excuse me for my vanity). I felt beautiful, I felt pure. With that piece of cloth wrapped around my head, covering my hair, I felt...really good. And the look on my friend's face as I tried on her tudung...it made me so so flattered. She wouldn't stop squealing in excitement, and that's when it hit me; people are more likely to support me in my decision, as opposed to go against it. About a half hour after that, my friend had to go home, and when she left, she came to my room and hugged me tight, full of encouragement and support.

And since then, throughout the whole day, I've been thinking a lot about what I'm giving up for the sake of being a good Muslim. I'm about to give up a lot of things, but I don't think it should matter right now. I'm not used to this new lifestyle yet, but bit by bit, inshaAllah, I will adapt to it without a problem. I'm very confident that there will be many people who are behind me on this, who are giving me their full support and encouragement.

I shouldn't care what other people think, and I don't think I want to. This is for my sake. For me.

Tonight changes everything. Alhamdulillah.



Friday, August 10
4:00 AM

I can't sleep. My eyes are really tired but I just can't seem to close them. I've got like an hour before I have to go down to the cafeteria for sahur. I've been up all night trying to solve some questions on Economics and halfway through I gave up. I'll just wait for the discussion with my tutor later. I'm not happy with the way my week is turning out. Ashamed and disappointed at myself for being very unproductive throughout the week. Constantly in a daze, absent-minded, in my own world.

Today is a new day and I will make it a fruitful one. Hopefully.

Also, Lana Del Rey's haunting voice in her song 'Summertime Sadness' is constantly played on loop on my iPhone. It's haunting. The video reduced me to tears. The song reminds me of peaceful swamps and Western forests. I make the weirdest connections sometimes.



Thursday, August 9
12:28 AM



Here I am at the pond at my hostel, thirty minutes past midnight, clearing my mind. It's really tranquilizing here. The air is cool enough for me to wear a jacket and those meteor-shower lights thingymabob make it pretty romantic here.

Too many negative vibes have been going through my mind. I'm not sure a night walk is a clear solution for it but it does help a bit. I feel calmer, and the sound of the crickets in the night are very relaxing. No ghosts so far hahahah.

If only I can share this experience with someone. Night walks are just so calming.



Wednesday, August 8
11:20 PM


Omg. Lana Del Rey, I'm officially in love with you.

I've been listening to nothing but her all day today. 'Summertime Sadness' happens to be my favourite. Her voice. So...vampire-ish haha. And I love the fact that her songs (and her look) give me that American 60's pop culture vibe. Loving it!

Lana Del Rey is one of my favourite singers now, next to Florence Welch of course ;)

I love how good music just drowns me away from all my problems. Bliss. But when the music stops I realize how dull and boring reality is.

Also, this song reminds me of being in the forest. I don't know why. But I like it. I like the forest.

Auf wiedersehen now.



1:00 AM


Whenever I feel angry or inferior to some other girl's qualities that I lack, I put on my red headphones and blast this song on full volume and I imagine I'm in the middle of a magical meadow with strings of lights dancing around me as I twirl and twirl in a white lacy dress with my flower-embroidered hair dancing in the air as it releases off its floral fragrance. I twirl and twirl until I get dizzy and all of a sudden all the world just seems to melt away and as I lay down on the soft cushion of grass beneath me all my problems just fade away and suddenly I feel as great as I can be, superior to everyone, better than any girl in the world.

I daydream a lot. I like magical things.



Tuesday, August 7
8:58 PM

I think it's possible that I COULD be suffering from dehydration at the moment.

I had really bad diarrhea yesterday and at one point it got so bad that it felt like pee (lol gross). I had to go to the bathroom often and each time I lay down on my bed, the need to go to the restroom came almost immediately. I really lost a lot of water since yesterday and it's finally taking its toll on me now. I wasn't fasting yesterday but I was too lazy to replenish all the lost water in my body haha.

My mum came to pick me up from the hostel yesterday to have Iftar with her and my sister at home. But by the time my mum reached here to pick me up I felt so tired and exhausted and I even swayed a little as I walked. And when it was already time for Iftar, the mere sight of food already made me want to vomit. In the end I only managed to eat about a handful of plain rice, without any lauk because just by looking at the oily, greasy dishes on the table already made me queasy.

After eating a poor excuse for a meal, I collapsed straight away on my bed at home. I was still conscious but my body just felt so lethargic and so fatigued that it was even hard for me to sit, let alone stand up. I still had time for quite a nap before we had to leave for A&W since my brother promised to treat us to some waffles. Yum.

But sadly since I was feeling really exhausted and my head hurt so bad, I didn't have the appetite for waffles and ice cream. So when we got to A&W, I only had a small portion of the waffle and at that moment I just wanted to go home and sleep.

After A&W, my brother and my mum sent me back to my hostel. Believe me, it was the last place I wanted to be and I needed the comfort of my own bed back at home.

As a result of my lethargy and dehydration, I had to skip class today to recover. Today was the first day that I can fast again after about a week. My neighbour woke me up for sahur but I was just so tired that I couldn't wake up haha. So in the end I laid in bed pretty much all day to avoid passing out unexpectedly.

I had some mihun soup and iced tea for Iftar today and I still feel light-headed and exhausted. I should be going for Tarawih now but I just feel so crappy and I wouldn't want to suddenly pass out in the middle of my Tarawih prayers.

Perhaps some 100Plus would help me at this stage. Or maybe I just need to drink lots and lots of water.

Gaaahhh I hate this crappy feeling. And I hate the fact that I've wasted a day on absolutely nothing. Grrrhhh.



Sunday, August 5
1:34 AM

I have nothing to say and I probably won't say anything because I'm really tired and exhausted of the same drama and if I'm the vindicated one then so be it because I've been through this countless times before, enough to make me get over the fact that I'm the one whose always the sore thumb in everything.

Got more important things to think about.



Friday, August 3
11:40 AM

The betrayal feels strong.

After all that I've done for you, this is how you repay me?

Thanks a lot.

Mid-semester exams are over. Yay.



Thursday, August 2
8:54 PM

A photo of the preserved interior of the Palace of Sans-Souci in Potsdam, Germany.

It's been a while since I've processed some photos. I had some free time earlier this evening so I looked through my archive of photo albums in my laptop, searching for a possible photo to process, and I found this photo I shot in The Palace of Sans-Souci in Germany back in March earlier this year. Suddenly the mood for some Photoshop just came back hahah.

Ah, I miss Germany. And I loved how the weather there made my hair so much less frizzy, and funnily it even made my hair smell nicer than usual hahah.

Last day of midterm tomorrow. MUET blegh. More like MU-ECK!



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