Iman Nedhiera

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Intensely passionate about photography and other artsy fartsy farts. An avid nature-lover. Highly obsessed with sunny afternoons and evenings, funky-looking clouds, and sunsets. Deeply infatuated with all things old, vintage, and kitschy. Highly sentimental. An enthusiast in baking, photography, and music :)


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Saturday, August 28
2:09 PM


Oh yes, I had such a great time yesterday in school. We celebrated the Independence Day yesterday and we were all required to wear traditional clothes. I wore my sister's black and white baju kurung and I got so many people coming up to me telling me how much they adore the baju kurung! Hehe :)

Yesterday was fun indeed, but the part that I hated the most was when the VIP gave a really loooooooong speech that made everyone restless. Well, at least the rest got to sit down, us prefects had to stand up for god knows how long just listening to the dude making his speech about independence. Heh, scratch that, I think nobody even cared to listen. Haha. I think he was standing up there at the podium for like, what, 45 minutes? During the last 10 minutes of his speech, I said to Nicole, "I'm going to shoot myself if he doesn't end his speech in 15 minutes." Seriously. My back was aching, particularly at my tail bone, as a result of standing straight for more than an hour. It was excruciating, the pain.

What seemed like hours until the speech was finished, all of us were relieved. I personally didn't think that he would end his speech at all. Haha. So then everyone stood up and started singing all the national songs that have been played through the intercom. Everyone was so joyous and happy and the hall was exploding with the students' excitement. I, as usual, as a partypooper, went down to bilik KH while everyone was singing to go and see if any of the prefects needed help for the feast for the VIP. They didn't, so I just stayed there and chatted with them while they were on standby until the VIP arrived.

The whole thing ended just before recess, so after recess we resumed our lessons as usual. My class had Addmath and Physics, two of my favourite subjects. Hehe. Honestly, while Pn Gan was teaching us the first part of Differentiation, my mind was so foggy and clouded and my eyes were threatening to shut close. I was so sleepy and my focus was not on Addmath. I only managed to get snippets of what was being taught to stick to the walls of my brain. And even that wasn't productive, haha.

After Addmath we had Physics. So we went to the lab to carry out an experiment to find out the relationship between volume and temperature on pressure. Hehe, it was fun! My camera was passed from one person to another and they took a lot of pictures.

I kind of maybe sort of felt like a college student, you know, coz we had to go to school wearing something else other than the boring old school uniform. Haha. I guess I'm just excited to further my studies in university :)

After school, me, Tasha and Ash stayed back and snapped a lot of pictures...of us. Haha. We fooled around, giggled, laughed, snapped pictures. Of us. And we recorded videos. Of us. Hahaha, I had such a great time with them, and also the rest of my classmates during school hours yesterday!

Oh yes, it was a definitely great day to enjoy :)

Uh-oh, I'm suddenly craving for Maggi Kari Meletup. Fuuhhhh maybe I'll eat that for buka puasa later :)



Thursday, August 26
6:06 PM

I look outside and I see thick grey clouds passing by, heavy and pregnant with rain. The sun is hidden behind those clouds and I wish the sun would hide there forever, because the heat is intensely merciless.

I want the rain to fall down and hit the grounds of the earth. I want to hear the patters of the raindrops hitting the roof like bullets. Oh, such a beautiful sound, I can listen to it forever! I want the cold air to come through my windows and hit my skin, causing a chill. I want it to rain tonight, so I can sleep snugly under the covers of my mattress while enjoying the cool air and the music of the rain.

It's been pretty hot these past few days and the heat is just merciless. Even at night, when the walls of the house are radiating the heat that has been captured and stored during the day, I can still feel the hot air slapping my skin like a tidal wave.

Oh! I just heard a thunder! Nyehehe.

I really hate the heat. I mean, if the house is equipped with air-conditioning systems in the living rooms and such, I wouldn't really mind, actually. But, no, the house is only equipped with ceiling fans and the air-conds are only available in the bedrooms. So, basically most of the day we have to face the hot air even when the ceiling fans are at the maximum speed. Plus, we don't even use the air-conds that frequently. Sigh. What an old house. But a very beautiful old house. Nyehe.

Maybe I'll sleep with my air-cond on tonight. It's been a while since that outdated junk has been switched on, anyway. Or...maybe not. I think it's gonna rain soon. Hehe!

And ugh, I'm really dreading to go to tuition tonight -.-



Wednesday, August 18
10:47 PM

Look, I know you've got a higher post than us, but gosh that doesn't mean you can be so rude to us. It's not really necessary to just campak our books like that, you know.

Oh, to throw a book full of useful knowledge is just disrespectful.



Monday, August 16
2:49 PM

Hmph. I thought today would be a good day. Boy, was I wrong about that.

As I listened to the cheerful, happy song Eclipse, sung by Metric, and the calm, serene blues of Coldplay singing Beautiful World this morning on my iPod on the way to school, I was pretty sure today would be a very happy day, just like cheerful rhythm of the song. But yes, I was wrong. Completely wrong.

My happy cheerful day took a turn during Sivik just now, during the last two periods of school. I heard some stories, and I was still contemplating whether or not I should believe them. After listening from various people, I finally connected the dots and figured out the whole truth.

Listen up, you lifeless moron. I don't know what the heck your problem is, but you have no rights to meddle with us. Don't be such an immature brat and put the blame on other people and deny your mistakes when you yourself is at fault. Don't be such a smart ass and manipulate everything that you've heard. And, I don't even know you! God! But you just messed up and contaminated the name of a society that I am in, and don't you dare think that you can get away with it. You're making things look worse than they already are, you're putting the blame on others, and I'm sure you're dumb enough to not know the number of innocent people you've just got their butts burned. You're such a mess and you seriously have no dignity!

Because of you, now the whole board is contaminated with your silly mistakes. You just dirtied our name, hence making everything worse than it already is, and I'd really slap you in the face if you think you can really get away with it. I don't care if you're starting to hate me for posting this, but what you did was wrong and you've affected so many people that it upset me so much to see them getting into trouble, all because of you.

I don't know what to say anymore. I'm just so fed up with everything and I'm so pissed at you. Beyond pissed off. I can't believe you would do such a thing! You're such a hypocrite, you know that? Claiming you come from somewhere and then you complain about it. That is really low man. You only look harmless, but I guess now I know how much venom there is inside you.

I really hope you turn into a sorry pile of human ash in the burning pits of Hell.

Your mistake is unforgivable. To me. To them. To all of us.

Get a life.



Monday, August 9
10:48 PM

It's been a while since I've sat down in a really comfy and snug chair with my nose buried in a really good book. God, I miss those times. Now I'm just so busy with extracurricular work and other stuff that I just don't have the time to really sit down and devour myself into the many pages of a really, really good novel.

I'm currently reading Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen and you have no idea how tiring it is to read that book. First of all, it's taking me twice as long to understand each and every sentence because the vocabulary is just bombastic and the sentence construction is just different and deeper. I'm pretty sure it's going to take me more than a month to finish that because you really have to take your time to really focus on the whole story. Most of the time when I'm reading the book, I'll be like, What the hell is going on?

Oh yes, Jane Austen is what I call, heavy-reading. I can't bring myself to stop reading it because then I'd feel very paranoid and incomplete. I have to finish reading Sense and Sensibility, or else I'll just feel like a loser, and a giver-upper. Haha.

I'm pretty free tonight, so if you'll excuse me I'm going to read my Jane Austen. Taa!



Sunday, August 8
12:00 AM

My earphones are busted. Bloody hell.

That thing isn't even three months old. While I was listening to my iPod, suddenly there was no sound coming from the right earphone. Then when I shifted a little no sound would even come out of the earphones. Stupid, stupid earphones.

Looks like I gotta search for the original iPod earphones tomorrow when I go to Pavilion. That's probably gonna cost me another 50 bucks. Great.

BAAAHH this sucks. I HATE it when I can't listen to my music!



Thursday, August 5
9:22 PM

Where's everyone when you really need someone to talk to?



Wednesday, August 4
10:50 PM

The house reeks of ikan masin.

I don't wanna go to school tomorrow smelling like ikan masin. Eck. Looks like someone didn't open the windows and provide good ventilation when frying the salted fish this afternoon -.-



Tuesday, August 3
11:48 PM

I just found out that for the recent exam, I've only gotten 3A's ; Addmaths, English, and Biology. I failed my Chemistry and passed my Physics. Haha, my Physics cukup makan only. God, this is bad.

Form 4 is a completely different world. It's a whole new level and just to be frank, I'm not really coping up well with it. I feel like as if day by day, the knowledge I've painstakingly devoured myself into is slowly vapourising into nothing. I feel like as if my brain is getting slower and slower as the days go by and the only thing that perks me up is by doing addmaths. God, I sound like a nerd, but come on, don't tell me you've never felt that sweet, sweet satisfaction when you can solve a lot of mathematical questions!

I've just realised that my best subject so far is Addmaths. I'm more of a calculative person and I really hate to read and memorise. You know what they say about the girl-boy agenda; girls prefer to read and memorise whereas boys prefer practical knowledge as opposed to just theories. Well, in my case, I'm more to the boys. The mentality, I mean.

I know I love to read a lot of books, specifically novels, but I really hate to read and memorise. I mean, sometimes, you try to memorise something and at the same time you don't even understand what the hell you're trying to stick to the insides your brain. It tires my brain out and when I can't remember something, that's when I start to hyperventilate and panic. I prefer practicality than theory because I learn faster that way. I think.

I guess that explains why I love mathematics so much as opposed to other subjects. Honestly, maths and also addmaths are easy. They're the easiest subjects among the nine I'm taking for SPM next year, because you don't have to read anything, you only have to memorise some formulas and have the ability to use them. It's that simple. You do a few exercises and tadaaaa! you immediately understand it!

You know something? I really hate Chemistry. It sucks. They have a lot of these weird looking equations with subscripts and whatnot and they irritate me like no one's business. I don't understand a thing about Chemistry, I really don't. It's by far the hardest subject among all and how I wish I could drop that subject. Really. But of course lah I can't. My parents will never approve of that!

Sigh. Life is hard. But then again, nothing is easy.



12:01 AM

You have no idea how tired I am right now. Bloody hell I'm so tired I'm gonna cry.

I was fasting today. Us the Prefectorial Board did some fund-raising at school and we sold J.Co doughnuts and fizzy drinks with nata de coco in them. I didn't mind so much about the fact that I was hungry looking at the doughnuts, but what really got to me was the dehydration and the thirstiness that hit me at full force when I looked at the colourful drinks filled with ice. God, it was like as if the drinks were mocking me and laughing at me. I was very, very thirsty.

I had a very long day today. I'm not really in the mood to write and I'm supposed to be finishing my Physics homework right now, but I'm not in the mood for that either. I got home from school around 4.45pm after a long, strenuous day of fund-raising. By the time I got home, I was really very tired and thirsty from fasting and I quickly put my schoolbag on the floor, took off my pinafore and I immediately zonked out on my bed. Ah, my bed. My beautiful, princessy bed. Oh, how I long for that now, but no. I'm stuck with Physics.

I slept for two hours after getting home from school because I was so, so tired beyond words. I could feel the exhaustion and dehydration taking over my system that I had no choice but to take a really long nap. By the time I woke up it was already 7.20pm, so I put on my peasant pants and got downstairs to get ready for buka puasa. The long nap killed the time and it gave me a slight rejuvenation.

After showering and after having my dinner, I had to get started on my work. So I did. But not all of them are complete, so I just finished the ones that are short and easy because I really don't have the mood for that right now. And my Physics homework is not complete and we have to send it in by tomorrow.

God I'm such a mess. I'm such a wreck and I don't know how to manage my time wisely. I only know how to plan my time, the only problem is that I give myself too much pampering by saying it's OK not to do this or that. I can't be that person anymore. I need my fifteen-year-old self back!!

I have to fast tomorrow and if I miss sahur again, then I'm screwed.

Did I mention that I didn't even have my sahur today? Yeah. The first thing that got to my stomach today was cold water, and it got there at 7.30pm. I'm surprised that I even managed to get through the day without feeling faint.

I want the weekend to come fast. And it's only Monday.



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