It's April already. It's freaking April! It felt like as if January was just yesterday. Dang.

March had been hectic. Obviously, the highlight of the month was Kak Intan's engagement day. We were so busy preparing for the engagement!

I don't know why people have to be so rude. I mean, it's just a matter of having a smile and a gentle voice. Is that too much to ask? Just now at school, I was in charged of keeping the bloody class bloody clean, since I'm the freaking Ketua Kebersihan -- yessss, say those italicized words in disgust. I have my own duty, too. So I reminded one of the girls who had their duties today to do her duty. She avoided eye contact, pulled off this really bastard-ish pokerface and muttered something that I couldn't hear. Bloody hell. It's not like I was bossing her around. Like as if I wanted to. Sheesh. And that, dear readers, was what spoiled my mood and got me in a bad temper tantrum throughout the day at school. I literally screamed when people got in my way.

Sometimes it's hard to choose sides. Options are always very crucial. One person says this, one person says that, it's all a jumbled mess. How do you know the truth? How do you know which person is telling the truth? Well, you can't. What they know, and what we know, it's different. They know the truth, we don't. Period.

Yes, choosing sides are crucial. But then again, sometimes you just don't have to choose any sides. Be mutual. Hey, I'm Swiss dude! I don't intend to be labelled as a hypocrite, or a back-stabber, and I don't like it. I'm not a hypocrite, nor am I a backstabber. Like I said, I'm Swiss! Mutual. When people are fighting and they tell me what they know, it's hard to choose whose side I'm on. I don't know, maybe that person might be telling me lies. But then again, maybe he/she might not. Sometimes it's just better to hear other people's opinions and POVs, so you can know who's lying and who's not.

As for the truth, I don't know. I just don't get why people who take other people too seriously, turning intended jokes and puns into realistic facts. I don't get why people would listen to a story and then spread it out to the whole world after exaggerating the truth. It's either they heard it wrongly, or they just want stupid attention. Spreading rumours, I don't know why people are so heartless to do that. You know, it's like this game, where you're in a straight line, or some kind of a shape that links one human to another, with a head and a tail. The first person would whisper something to the next person, and he/she would spread it to the person behind of what she heard, and so on. And when the last person says what he/she heard, the story would always come out wrongly. This is just like that game.

To grab attention, there are many ways. But spreading rumours to get it? That's...that's crucial! So insensitive, heartless, dumb and just plain dumber.

And to put the blame on someone else? That's as crucial as spreading rumours. Sometimes we know what we did wrong, but we just decided to put our blame on someone else, just so that we'd look good and innocent. Bullshit. What my mother once said to me is true, "The way we see people is how we see ourselves." She got it from a book she read, and man, that particular phrase is beyond true!

I'm Swiss. I'm on nobody's side, and I don't wish to become a hypocrite. I wish to help people the best as I can, but without involving myself too much. Because once I'm too deep in other people's lives, they're the ones who can truly, really stomp their feet on my precious heart and make it shatter into pieces. I obtain a lot of relationships with other people, but not too deep or too much. Being friendly, I like that. Greeting people who are nice, I like that too.

And oh God, is it SO HARD to slap a smile on your face and not be rude? You're lucky if I don't slap your face.