Iman Nedhiera

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Intensely passionate about photography and other artsy fartsy farts. An avid nature-lover. Highly obsessed with sunny afternoons and evenings, funky-looking clouds, and sunsets. Deeply infatuated with all things old, vintage, and kitschy. Highly sentimental. An enthusiast in baking, photography, and music :)


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Friday, June 25
7:21 PM

I went to the Mahkamah Kuala Lumpur today. Yeah, I went to court...along with my parents, eldest sister, and my brother in-law.

And the trip to court was...so COOL!

Haha, nah, we didn't go to court for anything serious. We went there because we were supporting my sister!

My youngest elder sister was admitted to the Bar this afternoon, since she's a lawyer and all, which means that she is officially declared as a full fledged lawyer. I'm so proud of her :')

I was amazed at how formal the session was in the court. If you want to get out of the courtroom to go to the restroom or whatever, you actually have to bow at the judge before exiting the courtroom. And then we weren't allowed to clap, and we were only allowed to laugh when the judge is laughing. Also, we were instructed to remain quiet, and we did. There were many people, about fifty or so, in the courtroom, but everyone was so silent that you could hear the ting! of a pin as it falls to the floor.

It was my first time ever being in a courtroom. A courtroom! How cool is that? Earlier today, I wasn't sure what you should wear when you attend a session in the courtroom. I was thinking of wearing my black pants with a formal shirt and a pair of shoes, but in the end I went against the idea. I ended up wearing a purple baju kurung and a pair of sandals. I mean, come on, you're going to a court. I'm sure you've got to look nice and decent right? Some people went there wearing jeans and t-shirts, and I thought, Dang, don't these people respect? But yeah I could be wrong. For all I know jeans and t-shirts are allowed in court. Haha.

Yeah, it was a good experience for me. I had fun going to court today. Haha. It's not everyday you get to go to court and see what it's like ;)

Good day. A good day indeed!



Monday, June 21
7:21 PM

Since my bed broke, I've been sleeping on my mattress that I've laid on the floor.

But tonight...will be the last night for me to sleep on that mattress on the floor! Yay!

My new bed is coming tomorrow! It's the kind of bed the I've always wanted; white, princess-y, some swirls, really high, and one that comes with the foot-board as well. Yes, my new bed from Ikea will be coming tomorrow!

They're coming in the morning, so that means by the time I get home from school, my new bed will be awaiting me in my cool snazzy room. Haha. Cool and snazzy lah sangat -.- But I'm excited nonetheless. Can't wait to feel like a princess!



Sunday, June 20
12:05 AM

God, you have no idea how much I miss my schooling days last year, when I was in Form 3. Honestly, I think 2009 was the best year of my life. I kid you not. Living life as a Form 3 student was stressful and pressurizing, but I can honestly say that it was the best time of my life.

Form 4 is nice, I guess. I'm not dreading it, but if I could turn back time and get to live my life as a Form 3 student again, I would. I still can't believe that I'm turning sixteen this year. I mean, I'm excited to grow up, get my driving license, go to university and get the dream job -- which I have yet to find out -- I've been yearning for. But at the same time I just wish that I can control my life like controlling a DVD player. Fast forward, rewind, pause, replay...how I wish life would be just like a DVD player. A dumb analogy, but yeah...

And, oddly enough, I kind of miss my school. Okay, well, I don't miss the "thrill" of waking up in the morning and going to school and having to face the torturing teachers and have your schoolbag packed with heaps of homework, but I just miss the peace I get when I'm with my friends. I love hanging around with my friends underneath the frangipani tree after schooling hours. It just brings me a little peace of mind and contentment. I don't know why, but it just does. Makes me feel...content.

I'm just feeling nostalgic right now. I miss my old friends and I'd do anything to be in the same class with them again. They've been such great supportive friends throughout the whole year, and despite my temper tantrums that they had to face, they still helped me like how a courteous, rational, and civilized person would. And yes, they were really my friends. Are. They are my friends. Well, at least some of them still are.

2009, please come back.



Friday, June 18
1:14 PM

I am fasting today! Hehe. I've got 10 more days to fast, exclusive of today, to compensate for the fasting days of last year's Ramadhan that I've missed due to my time of the month and also a really bad fever. God, ten more days. Ten days sounds like ten years.

I managed to wake up at 5am this morning for sahur. Since my appetite hasn't quite waken up yet, I decided to make some scrambled eggs and a mug of Milo to keep me full throughout the day, if not at least for half of the day. I always like my eggs scrambled. I don't exactly dislike omelets and sunny-side-ups, it's just that I prefer to eat scrambled eggs because they're fast and easy to eat. I can finish a plate of scrambled eggs in less than a minute, that is IF I want to be fast. Which explains why I decided to crack three eggs into the frying pan this morning. The cooking process took me ten minutes. I devoured the whole thing in less than five minutes. Haha.

After sahur, I watched the TV for a while before going up to my room to pray and then back to my bed. Well, my "bed". I don't exactly have a bed for now, since mine broke last week so now I'm stuck with sleeping on my mattress which I've laid and dressed on the floor while waiting for my new bed to come. Very Japanese. Anyway, I watched how Nigella Lawson made fish and chips and how Rachel Allen made a gingerbread house and mince pies and cinnamon rolls. Mmm. Cinnamon rolls...

I'm going out tonight with my siblings! Yippee! We're gonna watch Toy Story 3 after dinner and I'm hoping we'll eat out for dinner tonight. Maybe then I can get my cinnamon roll. Mmm, chocolate cinnamon rolls. God, I can taste it already.

Oh well, six more hours to buka puasa!

You know I still haven't touched my homework. Dang. I'm gonna get killed -.-



Tuesday, June 15
6:40 PM

I'm sorry Tasha and Ash, for stealing this from your blog. But I haven't done a survey in quite a while, so...haha.

How old were you when you had your first relationship?
Form 2

Are you taken/single?
Single

How old were you when you had your first kiss?
-

What color is your underwear?
Beige

Do you like anyone right now?
Mmm maybe

Ever had your heartbroken?
Yes

Miss anyone right now?
Nope

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
My boss

Last person to text you?
My boss

Last person you saw?
My dad

What was the last thing you said to someone?
I forgot, haha

Who is top in your top friends?
My sister :)

Why?
Cuz she's my sister ;)

Who do you trust the most in your life?
I have trust issues, so...

Who do you love most?
I have to say my parents, even though sometimes they don't treat me right

Ever been in love?
Nah

Who has hurt you the most?
Uh...hmm, haha

Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
Yes. I think

Are you happy?
I'm not entirely happy, but I'm loving life as it is

How many good friends do you have?
Three ;)

Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?
Yes. And it hurts so bad when I listen to them

Have you ever cheated on a partner?
Never

Ever been cheated on?
I think so

Ever been told someone loved you?
Yes lah, haiya

Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?
Duh

Not meant it?
Yeahaaa

Ever had your heart broken?
Yes

Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?
Yep :)

What is your idea of true love?
Honestly, I have no idea, haha

When they slip, do you think you can let go the small stuff?
Yeah

Do you believe in love at first sight?
No

Why or why not?
I dunno, it's just not real to me.

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
Yesss of course!

Do you believe that love can be found in bars or is that too much of a risk?
It's too much of a risk. And plus I don't go to bars

Should people go to bars to find love?
God, no -.-

Or should they go to places where people who like what they like hang out?
Yessss of course!

Should men and women be expecting the other to buy the other gifts?
Nope

FACTS: Today

1. Talk to a boy or girl you like?: No

2. Learn anything new? : Yep

3. Talk to an expert? : No

4. Miss someone? : Yes

FACTS: Last Person Who

5. Laid in your bed other than you? : Kakcik

6. Made you cry? : Dad

7. You went to the movies with? : Kakcik, Barn, Kak Intan and Abg Ike

8. Went to the mall with you? : Kakcikcikcik

9. You showered with? : Ngeh -.-

10. Said they loved you? : Mum

FACTS: General stuff

11. Wheres your favorite hangout? : Midvalley

12. What are you most scared of this second? : Hmm the results for the Prefectorial Board of '10/'11

13. Does anyone like you? : I don't know

14. Have you ever farted? : Yeah duh

15. Are you lonely right now? : Nah

16. Song stuck in your head right now? : Impossible - Shontelle

17. Been on TV or radio? : Yep, just the TV

18. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? : Yezzaaaa

19. What color shirt do you have on now? : White

20. Name three things that you do every day? : Read, online, pray

21. Whats your favorite show? : Friends

22. Who got you to join Myspace? : I dunno, haha

23. Wish someone was next to you this morning when you woke up? : No

24. What web site do you visit the most? : *guiltily typing* Facebook

25. Do you have plants in your room? : No, they'll die if they're under my care haha

26. Who was the last person to hug you? : Mum

21 SECRETS

1. What is your display name on Myspace about?
It's my name. Obviously

2. Where was your display picture taken?
At the garden of my house

3. What does your headline mean?
I have no headlines

4. What is your current mood?
Irritable

5. What's your most valued possesion?
My books!

6. How are things in your relationship?
No relationships yet dude

7. If you could go back in time, would you?
Yeah

8. If you could be an animal for a day, what would you be?
A butterfly

9. Ever had a near death experience?
No

10.Who is your most recent ex?
No one leh

11. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
Yeah -.-

12. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their physical appearance, i.e. face & clothes

13. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Mocha Frap



Monday, June 14
11:26 PM

First of all, I wanna say...

Please lah, I don't have the time to speak badly of you or try to offend you and spread rumours about you. You're not even an acquaintance of mine, so...yeah. I'm not that mean to go around and spread rumours about other people, just like you do it best. I have a heart. And I'm pretty sure that if we open you up like a Matryoshka doll -- you know, the little Russian nesting dolls -- we'd find a burning black coal at the core.

You think I'm like you, don't you? You think that I still go around talking bad about people? Haha, well, reality check, I've changed and too bad for you that you didn't have the opportunity to witness that. You don't know me well enough to start judging my personality.

I've heard things coming from you. And trust me, they're not exactly what I would call pleasant music to my ears. It's more like this annoying screeching sound you get when you run your nails down a blackboard that pierces right through your eardrums. It could be envy, or jealousy that is causing you to speak badly of other people, you know, but yeah what do I know lah kan? I'm not smart like you -.-

So, yeah, tolong jangan perasan eh. Don't think that the world only revolves around you. Don't think that everything people do or say has something to do with you. Don't think that everyone has the time to even let you linger in their minds... well maybe some people do but not every single person in the world.

Get a grip on yourself.



Friday, June 11
1:41 AM

Oh my God, I'm scared. I'm really, really scared up to a point where I feel like crying. My heart is hammering wildly against my chest and I can feel myself hyperventilating. I'm really scared.

I've just read an article on stomach cancer. During the advanced stage, the symptoms include;
a) Abdominal pain or discomfort in the upper abdomen (which I have)
b) Diarrhea and constipation (which I have)
c) Weakness or fatigue (which I have) and
d) Loss of appetite (which I have!!!)

I am really scared. I don't want to have stomach cancer. Then again, who does, right? I might just be overreacting and worrying over nothing but I think it's high time I go see a doctor pronto. The pain in my stomach is so excruciating that I'm gripping tightly onto whatever it is I can find and I'm gasping and panting in pure agony and it's making me want to cry. Especially after reading the article.

I don't want this. I hope it won't be anything serious. I'm really scared for my life. Literally.

Ya Allah, please make this pain go away!



Thursday, June 10
4:47 PM

God, I don't know what is going on with me for the past few days.

For the past few days, ever since the third day I was in Bali, I've been experiencing some really bad pains in my stomach. I've been getting stomachaches on and off, and it usually happens right after I take a meal.

I remember on the third day of my vacation in Bali with my family, we ate some Indonesian food for lunch. I remember putting a heap of really spicy sambal on my plate, and it was so spicy that I started to sweat. I've eaten spicier foods, but I'm suspecting that it was that sambal that triggered the oncoming pains.

Ever since that lunch, I've been having stomachaches. Sometimes, diarrhea would accompany it. Other times, loose stools would be coming out of my um, you know. But luckily, luckily, I'm not feeling any nausea. Thank God. I hate feeling like as if I'm going to throw up. The pain in my stomach is still here, right now. Just a few minutes ago I went to the bathroom to do my business, and I experienced some loose stools. It was my second trip to the bathroom today.

I don't know what it is that is causing all these pains in my stomach. Sometimes it'd get to painful that I'd have to curl up into a fetal position and I would gasp and pant in pure agony. Other times the pain would be mild. I really don't know what it is that's causing all this misery and I have yet to find out. I'm no doctor, but I'm guessing there might be an ulcer in my intestines, or maybe I'm experiencing gastric, which is nonsensical since I eat my meals regularly and I don't skip any meals.

It's like as if my body is rejecting whatever it is I'm eating. My appetite has gone down the drain along with my undigested crap. Whatever I eat, my body rejects it. Whenever I'm done eating a meal, I'd get that awful gut-wrenching pain in my stomach again. Sometimes I'd have to go to the bathroom just to relieve the pain, other times it'd just stay there since nothing feels like coming out of my intestines.

I'm also feeling very light-headed right now. I feel like fainting, and I really don't know why. My blood sugar level might be low, but again it's nonsensical since I've been gorging on chocolates and candies and drinking lots of Coke for the past few days. Maybe my blood sugar level is too high for my body to handle, which explains why I feel like fainting all the time. I don't know, you know, and there's a part of me that says that even a doctor won't know what's happening to me, since I don't even know what is happening to me!

It's been nearly a week since I've started experiencing the stomachaches. It's been a few hours since I've started experiencing light-headed-ness and the tendency to black out. I think it's time I go see a doctor. But I'm afraid that if I tell this to my father he'll just tell me to drink tea or 100plus or just lie down. Well, I can't really blame him. Going to see the doctor is not exactly as cheap as buying a packet of tissue. This cannot happen. Not now. I have tuition in a few hours and I can't miss another class since I've been missing a lot lately.

What is happening to me?



Wednesday, June 2
3:34 PM

We had the prefect candidates campaign today. We had to give a short speech and promote ourselves. Ceh. Haha.

Honestly, I didn't think I did that badly. Although I was kind of surprised when I heard some cheers when I got up on stage. Hehe. Anyway, I did OK while I was giving out my speech. I have to admit, my heart was really hammering against my chest so loud that I couldn't even hear myself talk when I was up on stage. But it was alright, I didn't stammer, I didn't stutter, I didn't slip a lot of "Um"s in my speech, if not very little.

It was a good experience for me. I mean, it's okay if I don't get voted as a prefect -- although I really really really hope I will be selected -- at least I had the experience of going up on stage and give a short speech in front of the whole morning-session students. I have never done that before and it was my first time ever to get to do that. It gave me some experience and it really boosted my self-confidence. I swear to God, it did!

The funny thing is, the moment I got up on stage and look at the 700+ students staring back at me, it didn't look like as if there were seven hundred pairs of eyes looking back at me. Suddenly the school hall looked smaller and it appeared to be as if there were only a hundred people there. Haha.

I didn't bother adding any humorous acts in my speech. In fact, my speech was rather spontaneous. I've chosen a big fat cat as my logo, which says something about obedience and loyalty and blah dee blah blah. I tried as best as I can to say things that are very close to the truth, if not the exact truth. And the funny thing is, I can't really remember what I said. I can only remember fragments of my speech, but not the whole thing. I was quite nervous, but not so much until I would stammer. It was alright. It was okay. In fact, it was a good experience :)

Our recess was extended until 11.25am so that us prefect candidates would be able to distribute our logos to everyone. I only did 60 of mine, but I regretted it. By the time recess came, I was only left with around 20, the rest I've given to many fourth formers. Dang. Haha. I felt so bad when some seniors and juniors and even some other fourth formers came up to me to ask for my logo, and then to find out that I've run out. Really, I wished I'd done more of my big fat cat logo *bangs head on the table* But it's alright, they don't need a logo to vote :)

I really hope I'll be chosen as a prefect. I mean, I'm only up for it because I love to participate in many extra curricular activities and plus, I'll get extra marks for co-curriculum! Hehe. I'm praying hard to God that I'll get it. Amin :)

I won't be able to go to school to vote tomorrow. By this time tomorrow, I'll arrive in Bali! Yippeeee! God, we've been planning this trip for so long that I can't remember since when. The time is finally here! Well, not yet, but we're getting there. I am so excited to go to Bali tomorrow! It has really been a while since myself and the whole family have been out on a vacation together. Together. All seven of us. Eh, wait, all eight of us, inclusive of my new brother-in-law. Hehe.

My plane will depart at 12pm tomorrow, but we have to be at the airport by 10am. I mean, if the plane's departure were to be at 4pm or something, I'd still have time to show up in school to vote and then go home early. Sigh. But it's okay. My friends say they're voting for me, hehe.

Uh oh, I still haven't packed yet. Dang.

Now what should I bring...?



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