Iman Nedhiera

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Intensely passionate about photography and other artsy fartsy farts. An avid nature-lover. Highly obsessed with sunny afternoons and evenings, funky-looking clouds, and sunsets. Deeply infatuated with all things old, vintage, and kitschy. Highly sentimental. An enthusiast in baking, photography, and music :)


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Thursday, April 28
9:44 PM


Alice in Wonderland in less than 48 hours. Super duper stoked!

Bring me back 2009, please.




Wednesday, April 27
10:30 PM


Making poker-card bows...by myself. Alhamdulillah, they're finally done.

My sister came up to me sometime ago, stroked my hair and asked, "How are things going?" Seems like she's the only one who acknowledges what I do in this house.




Tuesday, April 26
6:40 PM


Hehe. Everyone adored my little Pauline-ified Cheshire. I have a new pet! :)

I haven't written in a really long time, don't you think? I had a very stressful day today. This morning we had the full rehearsal in school for our Sports Day this Saturday and I had no idea how tiring it was. They left out the speeches, so the rehearsal was pretty short. But even then I started to feel slightly faint. And then I thought to myself, I really need to have more glucose in the morning -.-

Anyway, on the real day, there'll be a couple of loooooong speeches. Maybe three. I don't know. But we were informed that each speech will take about ten minutes and I groaned silently to myself. Honestly, who really listens? -.- 

We have another rehearsal tomorrow, but this time it'll be at the stadium. It's gonna be hot and it's gonna be a loooooong one, I'm sure. Looks like I really have to feed myself with lots of glucose before going to the stadium tomorrow and of course, on the real day as well. I wouldn't want to faint in front of hundreds of people while the event is taking place. And I'm my house team's mascot, to boot! That'd be so embarrassing haha.

Lots of work to be done today. I plan to study tonight, by hook or by crook. I was informed that our midyear exams will be very tough. The questions are going to be challenging and honestly...a part of me died. How am I ever going to get an A in all these ten subjects? Ah, speaking of which, I don't know if I'll be taking the paper for Pendidikan Seni for this midyear exam, since I've only signed up for it in like, what, two weeks ago? Two weeks ago...crap. That's a lot of time to get to know what I'm supposed to do for Pendidikan Seni. What is wrong with me?

I'm working on my poker-card bows at the moment. I have to do forty of them for my house team's marchers. I'm so excited for the outcome. Yeay! 

Off to shower now. I stink. If I were to be in a comic book, there'd be those green wavy lines radiating from me to show how smelly I am haha.





Monday, April 25
11:55 PM


Crappy quality. Meet my calculator and my phone :D




4:24 PM

What I would give to go back. Of all things I thought of listening to the song, it reminded me the most of how much I daydreamed. Of all the hopes I had for the future. And I miss that girl.

I think, the more we age, the less magical life becomes. I would love to be a few years younger, just for a day. But it's not like life now isn't great.

-- Noor Ashiqin. Great minds think alike.




4:08 PM

The title says it all. All I want is just a good pat in the back for all the things I've accomplished and also for the things that I'm trying to achieve now.

I just lost all hope. The light at the end of the tunnel has vanished and I'm stuck in the darkness forever.





Sunday, April 24
9:58 PM


Somehow this song makes me feel so calm. I love the soothing rhythm. Lyrics aside, the song puts me in a state of peace and calm. I have to say, it's a really nice song :)




8:57 PM

It's funny how people change over time. So I guess you can say the rate of change of a person is directly proportional to the time taken. What the heck am I crapping about?

I miss the old you. I don't know you anymore. Hm.




2:58 PM


Attack of the mustache.





1:06 PM

Sunway Lagoon trip with dearly beloved siblings after SPM is oveerrrrr! Yeaayyy super excited!




Saturday, April 23
7:13 PM


LOL. Me and my forest-obsession thing. I'm just so amazed by this photo. It feels like an enchanted scene stolen from a fairytale movie. 

Such a wonderful place :')





6:17 PM




Found these in one of my photo albums in the laptop. Meridien 2009. I miss my hair.



5:30 PM


Magic.




3:32 PM

Hello!

I have decided to change the design of my blog and...this is how it looks like now. I hope you like it :)

I'm deeply infatuated with vintage-looking things  




Friday, April 22
6:41 PM

Kalau Iman dapat 8A untuk SPM, nanti Abah belikan Iman satu hadiah special. Rahsia! -- Abah.

This might make me sound like a spoiled brat but this is the kind of motivation I need. No, not the kind of motivation that includes money and gifts, but the kind of motivation that comes straight from the heart of a beloved one.

This makes me giddy with excitement. I can almost see and feel myself getting at least 8A's for SPM. I can almost taste that wonderful euphoric feeling again of having that piece of paper in my hands, a paper that shows me my 8A's. Yes, I can.

Nothing is impossible. And achieving 8A's in SPM is certainly not impossible :)





3:54 PM

I think I might've gotten my groove back. Yeaaaaayyyyy I'm back in business!

Computer graphics, it's good to have you back. It's good to be back!

Alhamdulillah :)




2:57 PM


Somehow the more I look at this photo, the more I fall in love with it.



2:39 PM


FRIM 2009. You've no idea how much and how long I've been yearning to go here again. There's just something about rainforests that just makes me so...captivated. They're very enchanting, I have to say. Can I please please please go here again? See how happy I was? :(




Thursday, April 21
5:27 PM

Tasha Me

Grosssss I terpijak the lizard's egg!
IMAN! Do you have to tell us each time you terpijak the eggs? -.-
But it's only been my first egg! Oh wait that didn't come out right....

Hihi. Ohhhpp....



5:11 PM


Can I go here again, please???





4:49 PM

Well, seems like everyone's going to see Bieber the Boob tonight.

Whatevuhhhh. I'll be staying home and I'll most probably snuggle on the couch with a good book in my hands. Or a textbook. Haha. I plan to prop open my textbooks/reference books tonight so I can catch up on my studies and revise last year's syllabus.

I should be in Gear 3 by now -.-




Tuesday, April 19
9:19 PM


That room. The wallpaper behind the dude. They are so....GORGEOUS!!!! My jaw literally dropped when I found these. Aaaahhhh gotta have them!





5:37 PM

I need 2009 back. Despite all the various memorable events that have happened to me, I still feel as if the year is just...dead.

I need 2009 back. I wouldn't mind reliving all those horrendous, painful moments because they're nothing compared to what I'm going through these past one-and-half years. I'm just saying.





Monday, April 18
8:29 PM

Today happens to be the last day for my Form 3 science teacher, Pn Sa'diah. She's 58 now and she's finally retiring after serving many, many years in CBN.

We had a pretty big celebration/ceremony for her this morning in school. There was a slideshow of her and all the relevant events that have happened to her, including photos of her back when she was just a child. Since I was pretty busy with my prefect duty and all, I've missed out half of the slideshow. But luckily, I managed to catch the remaining half of it. While I was watching the slideshow, I wanted to cry, and I did cry. My eyes were filled with tears as I watched how she evolved from an adorable child to a beautiful woman to an inspiring and loving teacher and mother.

Pn Sa'diah taught me Science back when I was in Form 3. She was the most motherly teacher I've had that year and each time I think of her now, I tear up. Back when I was in Form 3, despite my class's horrible reputation of being such misbehaving children and yadi yadi yada, she still had faith in us and she stuck with us till the very end as we faced a stressful year trying to do well in PMR. I could tell she loved our class very much and whenever I couldn't manage to complete the assignments she'd given, I'd feel so ashamed of myself. Pn Sa'diah, she's such a caring and motherly teacher. Back in 2009, she treated us like her own children and each time I think of all that she's done for us, I just feel like crying.

Pn Sa'diah was also the teacher who blew more hope into me. She saw the potential in me to do well in PMR and she pushed me to achieve that. Even though she kept her teacher-student relationship professional and discreet, you could tell she really cared for us.

I've only been with her for a year, but a year is long enough for me to know that she really is one of a kind. I just can't tell you how motherly and loving and caring she is and I just miss her so much. 2009 was the best year for me, so far. I had such wonderful teachers, such as Pn Sa'diah, and I had a wonderful group of friends and I faced a lot of events that have managed to leave an impact on me.

I just wish there are more teachers like Pn Sa'diah out there. When I saw the slideshow this morning, I couldn't help but to let the tears pool up in my eyes and I had to bite my knuckles to prevent from crying so much. My ex-classmate, who is still a good friend of mine now, cried along too and I understood exactly why. Pn Sa'diah left such an impression on me, and also to her other students I'm sure, that to see her leave today, it was just devastating. Since she doesn't teach me anymore, I still greeted her with a very honest smile and all and it made me happy to see her smile and greet me back.

And you know what really touched my heart today? Pn Sa'diah still remembers my name, she still remembers me! At the end of her farewell celebration/ceremony just now, us morning session girls had to line up along the school compound, where she walked alongside the school principal to shake hands with her students, until she got to the BMW sports car that drove her away. So of course, I lined up as well, and when it was my turn to shake hands with her, I was surprised that she could still remember me! She spoke my name in such a motherly manner that it touched my heart. I'm so glad that I managed to hug her and I held on to her longer than I should have, hehe.

Pn Sa'diah is one of the teachers who changed my life. Back in 2009, when I was in Form 3, she was one of the teachers who made me change from a lousy student to a hardworking one. She really changed my life and I'm grateful for that. I still remember when she first entered our class back in 2009. She was wearing a purple baju kurung, with a purple headscarf, and I recall telling my friend how she reminded me so much of my mother haha.

I'm just very sad that she's not serving in CBN anymore. She's already retiring. Sighhhhhhh.

2009 IS indeed the best year I've ever had, and Pn Sa'diah happens to be one of the many wonderful people who made that year a wonderful one. So I thank you, Pn Sa'diah bt Shaaban, for simply being my teacher, even for only a year.

Too bad I don't have a picture with her. Oh well. At least I still have my memories :)



7:22 PM


Just wanted to capture the sun and the glare that came off it. It's been a while since I've seen the sun at this hour of the day.



5:37 PM






I honestly don't mean to offend anyone but I just can't help wondering how people would want to adopt dogs like these. I mean, don't they scare you? o.O I'm already getting goosebumps just looking at these pictures haha :S



3:26 AM

Psst, you wanna know something? It's 3:25am, and yes I'm still awake (or else I wouldn't be writing this, would I?) Hopefully I'll be going to bed soon after I'm done with a few more errands. Yay! Night owls rule.



Sunday, April 17
9:33 PM

I just wish people would become more friendly and warm towards others. I might sound like as if I'm living in the past, where everyone knew everybody, passing warm greetings to each other, even to those who are strangers to them. But don't you think the world would be a better place if everyone were to be more friendly? And warm? Like for example...oh I don't know...greeting a person first before saying what you actually need to say?

Sad world we live in.



8:45 PM


My first reaction when I first saw how big this t-shirt is. Please ignore my face :P

Here's to the largest shirt I've ever owned. It might not look so big in the picture but...yeeaaa it's huge alright. It's so big, I can drown in it. I'll be sending this humongous t-shirt to a tailor pretty soon to get it altered because it's just so huge and I'll look like a clown haha. Hopefully I'll be able to send it tomorrow and hopefully the t-shirt can be done in less than two weeks before Sports Day, since I have to wear this 'nightie' on that day. Haih, more money to fork out. I'm hopelessly broke!

Looks like my D90 is getting farther away from me, since I've been forking out lots of money to pay for stuff instead of saving the money for the DSLR. Don't worry love, we'll be together before you even know it!



10:23 AM


Morning!



Friday, April 15
10:00 PM

It's been about a couple of hours since I've returned home from Methodist Boys' School. There was a lot of mud...and water. Oh yes, a lot of mud...and water. Blah. I went there with a few more of my friends from the prefectorial board since MBS held this program for prefects. I don't quite get the whole point of it all haha. Anyway, when school ended, we walked to Masjid Jamek and took a train to MBS. We got down at Hang Tuah and I'd really like to say that the walk was a very pleasant one, but it wasn't. It was super hot and we were sweating like pigs. We were rushing and we literally fast-walked throughout the whole journey. We arrived at MBS shortly after 2pm, and thank goodness we weren't considered late -.-

I don't really want to write long about what my day went like. I'm just so exhausted and right now I'm sort of feeling slightly insecure about myself and I feel so small inside my own skin.

I'm just so exhausted right now. It's been such a long day and even a longer week and I'm just glad the weekend is here. Last night I stayed up until 3.30 to complete my homework and then I took a "nap" until 5. When I woke up, I realized that some of my homework weren't complete at all and I haven't packed my bag for school. My morning was disrupted, all thanks to my lack of knowledge in time-management. I became such a temperamental atomic bomb this morning that everything ended up upsetting me. I haven't been getting enough good sleep lately and I have a feeling that I'll zonk out tonight until noon tomorrow haha. Thank god book-checking is over, for now at least.

I can finally sleep peacefully tonight and appreciate the warmth and comfort of my bed. It's calling out to me now, beckoning me to lie down and go limp and have a good night's sleep. Ah, yes, that sounds lovely.

Hectic week is over. Alhamdulillah.



12:33 AM

My fourth post of the day. LOL. Sorry for the spam.

But......

MY PHYSICS BOOK, AND ALSO SOME OF MY CLASSMATES' PHYSICS EXERCISE BOOKS, ARE LOST. Thanks to that woman. Now, isn't that such a splendid thing to hear the night BEFORE book-checking? I mean, seriously, you have no idea how "happy" I am to hear such a thing. Splendid. Fabulous. Great.

I wonder what's gonna happen next. No way am I buying a new exercise book and rewriting EVERYTHING from the beginning. Lu ingat sikit ke haaaaa? If my name gets called up just because I "didn't send in" that particular book, I'm going to stand my ground and say that IT'S NOT MY FAULT. I'm gonna blame HER and she can blackmail me and treat me like shit for all I care. She's already treating everyone like crap anyways. Yeah la, who asked you to lose our books? Tak responsible langsung. And then pandai2 pulak nak blame kitorg for not passing up our books.

Go die la you.



Thursday, April 14
10:53 PM



FRIM 2009. I'd like to go here again, please.

I looked so young back then :/



7:13 PM

I miss my bed. Hopefully tonight shall be my last night of staying up so late at night just to finish my goddamn homework. And tomorrow night, I shall sleep on my comfortable, cozy, princessy bed like there's no tomorrow!



4:56 PM

I don't really curse and swear a lot but I'll make an exception for this case...

Fuck you homework and book-checking. Seriously. Thanks for screwing up my nights and thank you SO MUCH for ganging up on me.

Goodbye. I'm going to dig my grave now.



Wednesday, April 13
7:05 PM

Another sleepless night lies ahead for me. Homework awaits.

Another sleepless night leads to an awful, moody day ahead. Please expect me to be slightly temperamental and snappy this week. I haven't been getting enough sleep lately and I'm just awfully exhausted. Earlier at school today I found myself sighing in exhaustion from time to time. There are times when I can feel the exhaustion taking over my system at full blast and it's just unpleasant, really. My sleep pattern has dissolved into nothingness and I've been neglecting my bed.

Curse you book-checking. Curse you homework.

I just want the weekend to come quick. I can't stand all these late-night stay-ups anymore and I just want a night when I can get a good, honest sleep.

I'm just tired, really. Mentally and physically. Coffee, caffeine, whatever...please do your job tonight. I need youuuuuuuuuuu.



Tuesday, April 12
1:55 AM


Ohhh, bed! Wait...this isn't my bed. But it looks like mine. But it's not. Okay I'm crapping.

It's 1:54am and I'm still awake. Or am I...? I think I'm half-asleep. Hahah. This is what sleep deprivation does to you.

I become so lethargic so easily nowadays. Probably my hormones kicking in. 

Weekendddddd where are you when I need you??!!!



Monday, April 11
10:48 PM

Just got home from a pleasant dinner with my parents at A&W Petaling Jaya, my favourite fast-food restaurant ever.

I like the fact that this particular A&W branch near my house is still holding on to its vintage family-friendly concept. They're still using those old-school tables with the seats attached to them instead of those crappy modern tables and chairs you see in McDonald's or KFC nowadays. They haven't changed much apart from the way they package their food. Everything's pretty much the years before.

I also like the fact that this particular A&W branch is just a building of its own. It has its own parking space and it gives you this feeling of going to a typical all-American diner in the States. It's right opposite Amcorp Mall.

In short, A&W is my all-time favourite fast-food restaurant. It's family-friendly, it has an all-American diner ambiance, it's old school, and it doesn't have any of those urban modern junk. My family and I have been going there since a long time ago and whenever I go there, I'm reminded of all the good times my family and I have had at that place. If some cocky developer decides to tear down that place, I'm probably going to tear up. This place holds so many good memories that it'll be a shame to have it torn down and then replaced with another boring high-rise building...or something.

I think, when I finally get to go on my first date, I want to go there. The A&W opposite Amcorp Mall near my house. I just think that it's such a good place to have a pleasant time with your best friends over dinner, or a family gathering, or simply just a date. Oh, and did I tell you that my parents used to go there back when they were dating before they got married? Well, they did. That's like more than thirty years ago! It shows that this particular A&W has been there for decades and is still surviving, and I recall my father telling me that when he first knew about the place, it's already been there for a looooong time.

I'm just so thankful to be living in such a wonderful town. I mean, I know that Petaling Jaya is already known as a city but I still think it's a town. I love the fact that there are not many high-rise buildings here, and there's a wonderful forest just a few roads behind my house. Truthfully, I like living in the outskirts of the city. When I grow up and finally get to have my own home, I'd like to live in a remote suburban area, like Petaling Jaya. It truly is a beautiful place. It's peaceful, it's calm and quiet, and you can find many exquisite things here that you can't find in the city.

Alhamdulillah. I am very grateful for where I am now :)



5:00 PM

I cried a little in school today because I was disappointed at myself. My classmates and I got a good kick in the butt from our BM teacher this morning because we a few of them didn't pay attention while she was teaching. While my teacher was scolding us, my heart melted, in a good way. She told us how she actually has faith in us, how she strongly believes that we can really do well in SPM. She told us that we can do it, it's just that we're lazy.

After the good bashing from my teacher this morning, I have decided to buck up. Time is running out. SPM is just around the corner, albeit it's a few months away but time runs fast. Time doesn't stop and wait for you. Which is why I'm planning to start revising my Form 4 (and 5) syllabus soon. I'll be pretty busy with book-checking this week but I'm trying my best to finish all my overdue homeworks as soon as possible so I can start revising.

I have a feeling that in the months to come, things are going to be hectic. I'm even considering quitting my post as the head of the graphics department in the Editorial Board, since my brain has failed to come up with something admirable. I'm not kidding. I don't think I can handle the stress and I've never been really good at organizing my time well. I really feel like quitting and although it may seem like I'm just a weakling who gives up easily, I think it's best for me since SPM is just around the corner.

I've tasted what it felt like to be one of the top scorers in the school. Back in 2009, I've managed to get seven out of eight A's in my PMR results. I was elated beyond words! I want to experience that same elation and happiness again next year, when SPM results are out. My target for SPM is 7A's. I can do it. I know I can. Nothing is impossible. I really want to get good grades in SPM and I don't want to disappoint my teachers.

I have a feeling that tonight will be another sleepless night for me. I need a good dose of caffeine since I have tons of homework to do and time is running short. So expect to see me with panda eyes tomorrow.

Have a good day.



Sunday, April 10
11:18 PM

Haih, I don't know what to say. This kind of crap has happened so many times and now that it's happening again, I just feel like laughing my ass off.

Apparently there's this new page on Facebook about the bitches of CBN. I'm not kidding. Some wacko created the page just for laughs, I'm sure. I'm pretty sure it's a she since I bet that no boy would have the balls to do something like that. Anyway, this wacko created an album called "Bohsia CBN" or something like that and she posted photos of who she thinks are the "bitches" of CBN. Most of the pictures I saw involve girls from the afternoon session, so I'm betting that the crackbrain behind this mess is a girl from the afternoon session.

I just don't know how to react to this. I'm pretty sad, actually, knowing that these kind of people lurk around in our community. I guess it's true when they say that the generation keeps on getting from bad to worse. I mean, yes, I may be angry about it but I'm more sad about it than I am angry. To think that some people actually have the time for all this...it's just sad, really.

I feel like laughing my ass off. I don't know what these kids learn in school these days. I can't say I blame the school and truthfully, the school shouldn't be blamed.

Ah yes, ashamed. That's how I feel right now. Ashamed that my own juniors would actually have the balls to do such a thing.

ANYHOW, on the bright side, a picture made my day today!


My good friend Atasha just sent me this picture and I meltedddddd! I'm literally squeaking in delight right now haha. Just like what she said, the wallpaper is sooooooo me! And it is! She actually just gave me an idea on how to spruce up my room a little bit. I have the same bed frame, but since I don't have the wallpaper I can just drape some twinkly lights around the bed frame. I'll probably skip the curtain since it's most probably going to collect dust. Hmmm...sounds like a good plan. Maybe one day I'll drop by at Ikea and get a string of twinkly lights just like the one in the picture.

Exciteeeeedddddddd!



3:52 PM

6th March 2010. It was the day I made the biggest mistake to my hair.

Went to the hair salon and relaxed it -.-

Back then I didn't know that if you wanted loose curls on your hair, you should tell the stylist that you want a perm, not a hair relaxing treatment. I remember my mum asking the stylist what would happen to my hair if I went for the treatment, and the stupid woman showed us a picture of a girl with shiny wavy hair. She told us that my hair will be shiny and smooth and blah dee blah blah. What she neglected to tell us was that my hair wouldn't have loose curls, it'd just be stick straight. I thought my hair was going to have loose curls or waves just like in the picture, but I was wrong. I mean, how was I supposed to know? The dumbo went and showed us a picture of a girl with wavy hair, so I automatically assumed that my hair would look just the same after the treatment.

Boy was I wrong. My hair ended up flat as the ground and she went and cut my hair in a way that I didn't like. It was somewhat short at the top but super long at the bottom. It was just hideous. Plus, I could literally feel my super stick-straight hair sticking to my scalp, because it was that flat. To make things worse, my family had organized a celebration dinner that night, and I was so disappointed with the result of my hair that my mood has gone with the wind during that dinner.

I'm glad that the relaxant has gone off almost completely now but there's still a few parts of my hair where the relaxant has decided to stay.

Ah, yes, I forgot, a couple months back I went to the same hair salon with my mum -- since that's where my mum always goes for a haircut -- and I'd gotten a haircut. The woman came and chopped some of my hair off and I just thought my new haircut was horrible. It was fine at the top part of my hair but as it got to the ends of my hair, it was just unsightly. Okay maybe not unsightly but it looked just plain hideous. It looked like as if the stylist just took a pair of scissors, grabbed all of my hair in her hand, and chopped it off in one clean snip. But she didn't. God knows what she did to my hair but the result was just disappointing. Oh, and you know what's worse? She was talking to her other bloody stylists while she was cutting my hair. I hate when that happens! Like, dude, you're working on a customer here, you shouldn't be talking to your other colleagues while you're doing your work! Seriously! It made me wonder if she was really concentrating on cutting my hair or engaging herself more in the conversation about God knew what. She was speaking in Chinese with her colleagues. Of course, I chose the latter, since my hair ended up unprofessionally cut.

And they are so...RUDE! I mean, they're not so friendly and they speak to my mum in a very harsh manner. I'm not sure if my mum realized that but each time I heard them talk to my mum in that questionable tone of theirs, I just feel like slapping their faces and say, "HEY BITCH! YOU'RE TALKING TO A WOMAN WHO'S SO MUCH OLDER THAN YOU! IS THAT HOW YOU SPEAK TO YOUR CUSTOMERS?!" Yes, I would really use the word "bitch" in cases like these.

I don't know why my mum still bothers to go that salon. Maybe I should tell her about my own hair salon that I've discovered a couple years back. It's barely a five-minute drive from home and the salon is actually in a compound that used to be a house, complete with the gate and the lawn and all. I still remember the first time I went there. The stylist who worked with me really knew what to do with my hair, and I went home with a smile on my face because I loved my new haircut. It cost me RM40 but it was worth the money.

I went to the same hair salon yesterday to get a haircut because I felt like I needed one. The haircut cost RM21 because I'm a student and I think they considered me as a member there, although I don't remember signing up. But when I first went to the salon a couple years back, they made me fill out a form for their customer records, I think. Anyhow, I managed to get the RM21 haircut because...well I don't really know why haha.

The stylist who worked with me yesterday was very friendly. He also knew what to do with my hair so I trusted him on that. He didn't talk to his other colleagues while styling my hair and I also observed around and managed to notice that the other stylists didn't speak to one another while they're working on their customers. I found that very promising and very professional and I have no doubts about going there again.

I sort of like my new haircut. It's about an inch shorter, or maybe a little more than that, and it looks nicer now. I'm kind of sad that it's shorter but at least it doesn't look like as if someone took a whole bunch of my hair and cut it with a scissors in one clean snip.

I can't wait for my hair to grow out. I just want to get rid of the treated part of my hair, quick! I miss my natural waves :'(



Friday, April 8
5:22 PM

Today has marked the end of a very hectic and tiring week. I've had so much fun this week, even though there were times when I was down and gloomy and moody but despite all that, I really enjoyed myself and I'm sure others did too.

We've done it. Us 5K girls, we've done it! Our class drama went by smoothly even though we had some problems with our props and changing scenes, but we still did it. Everyone looked spectacular in their outfits! We're placed at second and you have no idea how exciting it was for us to hear that.

When the results were being announced, I was close to tearing up. Us 5K girls were all huddled up in a group behind the audience as the emcees were announcing the results. One of our very own actresses, Myrrah, managed to conquer the third placing for the Best Actress award, and we are so proud! When it came to announcing the best overall performances, we were downright nervous. My hands and feet were cold and my heart was pacing so fast until I thought it was gonna pounce out of my ribcage. When they were announcing the class who got the third placing, our hearts shattered. It wasn't us, and somehow we knew that we wouldn't stand a chance against the other three classes. We were so sure of getting third place and when we didn't, we thought that we'd gotten the fourth. We were all so down and disappointed, and it came to a point where I felt like just getting out of the hall so I wouldn't hear the results.

But then, when they announced the second placing, we were shocked! They announced that team 4, which was our class, had gotten the second placing! It took a while for us to realize that we'd gotten second place and I think everyone knew that our reactions were kind of slow. Haha. It definitely took me a few seconds to actually realize what was going on. When the message finally sank in, we whooped and cheered in sheer delight! We were just so happy and our heads were in the clouds and it was just a memorable and amazing moment for us. I cried a little, I was shedding tears of joy. We were all so happy and there really aren't any words to describe how we felt that moment.

When the prize-giving ceremony ended, all of us ran around the school searching for Pn Gan, the woman who made it possible for us to win 2nd place. She was the one who stuck with us from the start till the very end and we are just so grateful for that. While my classmates were searching for Pn Gan, I went upstairs to the classroom to change into my black pants since I was wearing a skirt, which was very difficult to run in. I quickly changed so I could join my classmates. When I found them, they were already huddled around Pn Gan, and when I saw her, I went straight to her and hugged her tight and yelled "THANK YOU PN GAN!" When I was hugging her, I was crying. Seriously, we couldn't have done it without her. She even lent us some of her things so that we could use them as part of our props. We also couldn't have done it without the help of our BM teacher, Pn Aizan, who commented on our expressions, voice projections, etc etc.

My best friend Tasha did a great job at portraying her role as a psychotic murderer. There was this one scene when she had to cry, and she did such a good job at it that even I wanted to cry as well. But obviously I couldn't, since I was in that particular scene. She's done a spectacular job and I honestly thought she should've gotten an award for the Best Actress category. Well done, Tasha! And well done to my other classmates too! You guys did an amazing job!

I really can't find the words to express my happiness, and I can't find the words to express my gratitude and gratefulness to my teachers who've given us tons of mental support, like our English teacher Pn Mugil and our class teacher Encik Suhaimi. Both of them loved our drama, but we couldn't have done it without their support!

This marks the end of a hectic and tiring week indeed. I'm definitely going to remember this event in the years to come.

Alhamdulillah. 5K, I love you guys so much =)



Thursday, April 7
10:51 PM

Tomorrow's the day. The big day.

The Form 5 interclass drama competition will be held tomorrow and it's terrifying. My heart is beating so fast right now and my feet are cold and my palms are sweaty, just by thinking of what tomorrow has to offer.

What if I forget my lines? Or...if what sentences my turn up don't right? I mean err...what if my sentences don't turn up right?

*exhales* Keep calm and think cupcakes. Yummm cupcakes. It's been a while since I've baked.

I hope we'll perform really well tomorrow. My classmates and I, we've been on the emotional rollercoaster ride since the first day we've started practicing for this drama competition. We've been through many emotional ups and downs and we've faced a lot of commitment problems. But as of today, I think we've done a great job at preparing our class drama. And we couldn't have done it without all the help and dedication from Puan Gan! I don't think we have that many problems... Anyway, I just hope we'll win the audience's heart tomorrow. A wise person recently told me that it's not about winning the prize, it's about winning the hearts of the audience. And I think what she said is true. So very true.

We need all the luck we can get. We're hoping that God will be with us tomorrow =)

You have no idea how exhausted I am this week. I just can't wait for the weekend to come.



Wednesday, April 6
5:31 PM

I can't tell you how devastated I am right now. Today has been very glum and depressing and devastating and I just don't know how I'm feeling right now.

I've actually written a really long post but I've decided against publishing it. Three people of whom I know and are in good terms with are hurt, hurt enough to be sent to the hospital. I got very devastated when I heard the news and I still am. And unfortunately, one of them happens to be one of my favourite teachers of all time, Puan Gan, the most dedicated, honest, inspiring teacher I've ever known.

Suddenly I've just lost my spirit to perform well in our class drama for the Form 5 interclass drama this Friday, since Puan Gan was the one who's made it possible for us to even be in the finals. She's helped us a lot with our storyline, our acting, our facial expressions, our voice projections, our props, etc etc. When this drama is over, I plan to propose an idea to my classmates to get her a big box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates as a sign of appreciation for all that she's done for us. She loves Ferrero Rocher chocolates haha.

I just hope that everyone will heal and recover successfully soon.

This week has been very deep and emotional and I just want to get out of this mess. I don't have the spirit for anything anymore. I just want those concerned to recover soon :(

And hello, you think it's funny when someone gets hurt? Standing there like imbeciles, snapping pictures of a devastating incident that involves a TEACHER, you think it's all fun and games?! I'm sorry for being harsh and I know it's not right, but someone needs to give you a good kick in the butt and oh, being rude and disrespectful in the first place isn't so right either, is it? You should be ashamed of yourselves for not having the slightest bit of respect towards a teacher. Honestly, what do you kids learn in school these days, huh? -.-



Tuesday, April 5
9:51 PM

Everything just doesn't seem right today. I feel like as if today has been really "dark", and no I'm not talking about the weather.

My somber mood today probably had something to do with my lack of sleep last night. I only went to bed at 4.30am last night just to finish my homework, but before that I managed to take about an hour's worth of nap. Or maybe it's just another round of PMS kicking in.

I knew I was going to have a pretty grim day when I was in the car on the way to school this morning. I'd brought along the DSLR so that I can snap photos of my classmates, but then I suddenly remembered that I've forgotten to put back the battery pack inside the camera. I was charging the battery last night and since I was in a hurry this morning, I ended up bringing a battery-less camera. I was so deflated and somehow, I knew I was going to have a bad day.

Apart from that, I got really pissed off when recess ended. During the assembly after recess, we had to line up at the tennis court. As I was carrying out my prefect duty, some douche bumped into me from behind and she didn't even have the courtesy to apologize. As a consequence, my novel fell to the ground and for some unfathomable reason I stood there for a few seconds, quite stunned. I got so pissed off that I yelled, "KURANG AJAR!" I wasn't sure if she heard it but I hope she did. I think a few other girls heard me as well but I can't be sure about that. I was staring at the girl who bumped into me, all the way until she disappeared from my sight. My face was contorted into sheer anger and I could feel my eyes shooting daggers at her back. She was a junior from the afternoon session.

It just shows how people nowadays are just so ignorant. They never have the courtesy to apologize when accidentally bumping into someone and they have no respect for others. I'm not saying that everyone's like that, I'm sure there are plenty of people out there who are highly respectful people. It's just that nowadays, most people are just very disrespectful and rude.

You might say that my yelling "kurang ajar!" at the girl was a bit melodramatic, but knowing me, I really hate it when I come across very rude people. I can instantly become a bitch when I deal with rude people and I know it's not right, but then again being rude in the first place isn't so right either, is it?

Also, when school was ending today, the juniors in the afternoon session were really plucking my nerves. The morning session girls have to share classes with the afternoon session girls, so there are times when us morning session seniors have to take an extra time to pack our bags before leaving the classroom, which by then the afternoon session juniors would already be outside the classroom, waiting to come in. Back then, when I was a Form 1 student, we had to wait for all of the seniors to exit the classroom before we could actually enter. Now? That kind of tolerance just doesn't exist anymore. What pisses me off the most is that these juniors just enter the classroom like it's nobody's business, while us seniors are still at our desks, jamming books into our bags and making sure we don't leave anything behind. And they simply come in and dump their bags onto our desks, which is also theirs, but still. I just find it so disrespectful.

I'm not trying to make anyone look bad here, but I hope that whoever reads this will have some realization drilled into their brains. Nobody likes dealing with rude people and I'm sure you don't like it too, so please, if you want others to treat you with respect, you have to learn to respect others first. It doesn't matter if you're older or younger, you still have to respect others.

I don't know why today has been so glum for me. Maybe it's the weather, maybe my hormones are kicking in, I don't know. I just hope tomorrow will be a better day for me.

I can't wait for Friday, though. Form 5 interclass drama competition will be on and I can't wait to perform our drama =)



12:04 AM

From now on I'm not going to write any titles for my posts.

Anywaaaaay,


Hahahahahaha this is so hilarious I can't stop laughing and I think I peed a little HAHA. And look at Myrrah's face as Amelia's running around! LOL. Drama practice =')



Sunday, April 3
5:31 PM


Blisssssssssss 



1:48 PM

Yesterday I was using my sister's Nikon D70s and I forgot how marvelous Nikon is as opposed to Canon. I don't know, maybe it's the lens, but I find that whenever I snap photos with a Nikon camera, the pictures always turn out lovely. The colours are bright and bold and warm, whereas the pictures snapped with the Canon have very subtle and dull colours, which I really don't like.

Which is why I'm going to ransack my closet later to find some stuff to sell. I have a lot of clothes that I don't really wear anymore so I think I can make a profit out of that. I don't know where I'm gonna sell them, but I need to earn money! I also have a couple of my old hand-phones that I don't use anymore so I think I'm going to sell them to a hand-phone retailer. I'll probably earn a couple hundred bucks from that. I'm still trying to think of ways to earn money.

I'm kinda sick of using the Canon DSLR. It doesn't even belong to us. It belongs to UM, where my dad does his lectures. I haven't really been a fan of that camera because first of all, the sound of its shutter really annoys me. It's loud and shrill and ear-piercing and it feels like nails on a chalkboard. Also, the colours of the photos don't really turn out so well. Maybe it was the white balance, but the colours of the photos don't really "pop" as opposed to the photos snapped with the Nikon. And lastly, do you know why I'm so sick of using that Canon? THE MANUAL FOCUSSSS! It's not really the camera's fault, it's actually the lens. Somehow the lens's auto-focus broke sometime ago so whenever I need to snap a photo, I'd have to manually adjust the focus so that it would be precisely on the object. Gahhh I hope you know what I'm trying to say haha. I don't know how much it'd cost to fix the lens, but I'm betting it'll be a couple hundred bucks. Not really worth the money, to tell you the truth. I'd rather save it for the Nikon I'm planning to get.

I guess you can say I'm pretty desperate right now, haha. I really can't stand that Canon anymore. Whenever I bring it to school, I'd have to teach some of my friends on how to adjust the focus manually and the photos often turn up blurry. I already have some money in my savings and I'm planning to just get a secondhand DSLR. If I were to choose between a brand new D3100 and a secondhand D90, I'd pick the latter. I mean, even though it's secondhand, at least it has more features.

I have yet to find a secondhand D90 somewhere out there...hmm....Maybe I'll ask my sister if she'd be willing to take me to Sungei Wang to check out the prices. Hmm sounds like a plan *rubs hands together with an evil grin* Hahah. But of course, she'd probably say no :P

But that's okay...I'll bribe her some more >:D

I can't wait! :)



12:59 AM


Meet Marina and the Diamonds. Haha. It took me quite a while to warm up to this song, but after a while I found it very catchy. And I love the video! It's so cute and it's kinda funny too haha. I love the concept of it all, and Marina looks so cute! 

Okay I go to bed now. G'night!



Saturday, April 2
12:05 PM

Uranus = Your anus.

I guess that's why they changed it to Urectum, then. So I guess we can call it Your Rectum now? :D

Haha yuckkk



Friday, April 1
9:32 PM

Courtesy of Flickr.

I think this has got to be one of my favourite photos ever captured on camera. I just love how it gives off this cool, peaceful vibe of being somewhere in the rainforest; notice the trees somewhere in the background? ;)

I don't know where this is, but I'd like to go here sometime, if I could. And for some reason, this picture reminds me of Florence + the Machine's Cosmic Love. Haha. *Here I go again with my obsession with Florence + the Machine*

I just love the rainforest :)



5:51 PM


There's just something about having a slice of pie along with a glass of milk that just turns your evening into an extraordinary one. Yummmm.

I can't wait for June! My brother's going to get married and since his fiancee is from Sarawak, the whole family will be flying off to Miri for the reception on the bride's side. I'm excited because a) my brother's finally getting married, b) we'll officially have a new family member and c) we'll get to ride the airplane! Hahaha. I love travelling by airplanes :)

Can't wait can't wait can't waaaaait! I'm already thinking of what to wear for the reception in Miri haha.



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