Iman Nedhiera

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Intensely passionate about photography and other artsy fartsy farts. An avid nature-lover. Highly obsessed with sunny afternoons and evenings, funky-looking clouds, and sunsets. Deeply infatuated with all things old, vintage, and kitschy. Highly sentimental. An enthusiast in baking, photography, and music :)


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Friday, October 30
6:14 PM


Sigh. As the days pass on, I've been wanting, yearning, to go to FRIM, just to surround myself with the cooling ambiance provided by the wide range of trees. I don't know why, but I find that going to a rainforest makes me feel calm and peaceful, a place where I can escape myself from the sickening environment of the city. I'd rather inhale fresh air from a rainforest rather than to breathe in the sickening gases lurking around in the city, thank you very much.

I don't want to to do anything in a rainforest, actually, except to take lots of wonderful photos. I just want to explore the rainforest, and maybe go on a hike, and (again) snap a lot of photos that will take everyone's breaths away. I guess one of the many factors of me becoming really obsessed with the rainforest is because of the cool air. I've never liked the hot sun all my life, which means that I really love the cold weather. I love the rain, I love the cool weather, and even though when the sun is shining brightly up in the vast blue sky, with no clouds to provide a shade, just by chilling out in the forest can actually make you believe that the weather is really cold.

But, alas, who shall take me there? Hmm, nobody, since everyone seems to be so busy now. Fine, I guess I'm on my own, then. Looks like I'll just have to stick with daydreaming about myself wasting my precious time in the forest, then :'(

Oh, I've finally found my vanilla milk tea! God, I fell in love with that thing when I took the first sip. Yippee! I found it, oh yeah yeah yeah.

My birthday is in two weeks! Woohoo! I'm so looking forward to it. I wonder what kind of gifts I'm going to receive. HAHA, talk about selfish. No lah, I'm not expecting any gifts this year. I can't possibly ask for more, actually. It doesn't really matter what kinds of gifts I'm going to get, if I'm getting any, it's the thought that counts!

I'm enjoying life as it is now before I get into Form 4. Me, becoming sixteen, in form 4. Wow, haha, time flies by soooo fast. I'm starting to get queasy and anxious about my PMR results, but I've tried my best. That's what really counts, I've tried my best. Yeah. I've tried my best. I've tried my best. I am reaaaaaally yearning to be streamed into the science classes. I really hope I will. My career options are all involved in science, and I need to be streamed into the science classes! Oh well, I don't want to think about that now. For all I know, I might be stressing over nothing. Hahaaa.

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to enjoy my vanilla milk tea. Woo!



Thursday, October 29
7:21 PM

Oh my God, I've just finished reading "Thanks for the Memories" written by Cecelia Ahern, the goddess of all fairy tales.

I absolutely adored that book. The storyline was so suspenseful and it is just so hard to put down the book. I mean, the way she wrote it, makes you want to find out what's about to happen next. It was such a nice read. The story is so sweet and I literally ended up in tears when I finished the last page of the book.

Since I borrowed that book from a friend of mine, I decided that I'd definitely go and buy the book and read it again. I began to love the characters as I read further and further on, and I just couldn't put the book down. There were some parts of the book which I felt frustrated with, because there were so many barriers that prevented the two main characters from achieving their mutual goal, which was to meet each other.

Oh God, I loved reading that book. I am definitely going to go and buy it, and read it again. Hihi.

I went to Midvalley with my father today, after a few hours of resting at home after I got back from school. It's been a while since I last bought a book to read, so I went to MPH and guess what I got? Another Jodi Picoult! Eheh. You don't have to be as enthusiastic as me if you're not interested in books, thank you very much.

Handle with Care, that's the title of the book written by Jodi Picoult that I just got. I figured it'd be worth the money, because I hate to buy books and then finish it in just a few days' time. To hell with 'power-reading' or 'speed-reading', what's there to rush, anyway? So, yeah, I'm looking forward to starting and finishing this book.

I just can't stop thinking about Thanks for the Memories. Haha. It's just that the book is so beautifully written in a way that makes you want to weep. Well, that's what I did, anyway. I kind of teared up a bit, eheh. I definitely recommend this book to those who want to kill time by reading. 4/5 stars! No other author has ever made tears well up in my eyes, except Cecelia Ahern. She did the same when I read If You Could See Me Now, too. Haha. Long story short, Cecelia Ahern is a very good author who writes such beautiful novels. She is, by far, one of my favourite authors :)



Wednesday, October 28
5:02 PM


What. A. Craptastic. Day. First of all, I wouldn't've gone to school this morning if it weren't for the bloody Form 3 interclass debate. Second, I was pissed off by so many people that I just felt like sulking all day long and ruin everyone else's days. Honestly, when I get pissed off, I get cranky and selfish. That's just my nature.

I honestly felt like going back to sleep this morning. But I couldn't, because yesterday I got a text message from my classmate saying that I was to be in the debating team for our class today. Fine, so I took it as my own responsibility, whatever. I wanted to try to debate, anyway.

When I got to school, only my classmate that messaged me yesterday showed up. The other three? They were absent. Well, at least one of them gave a valid reason on why she didn't show up, she got warded into the hospital. I know her long enough to not lie about these things. The other two? Hampeh. Well, they were just reserves, but that didn't mean that they weren't supposed to show up! They gave such ludicrous reasons that I just felt like screaming at them until their heads fall off.

And then that's when my classmate and I were going frantic, searching for a replacement for our third debater from our class. Nobody complied, instead they all gave stupid reasons that they're not good at speaking and all. Bullshit. Whereas in class, they talk like nobody's business, like there's no tomorrow.

In the end, we found no replacement. Since our class wasn't the only one who were short of debaters, my class and a few other classes were cancelled. We didn't go for the debate. Huh, great.

I felt so humiliated, in a way, and I felt so pissed off and angry and...foolish. I felt like a fool, but I didn't exactly know why. I was so pissed off, in fact I haven't been that pissed off for a very long time. I was ready to scream at people who got in the way, I was ready to snap and break. And it all started with a sulk on my face.

When I got into class, feeling foolish after got cancelled for the debate, some ridiculous activity was going on. We (the form 3 students) were all huddled up in one class since the attendance was palpably very little. Fine, whatever. I could live with that. And the activity for today was...crap. Literally! It was the kind of crap that comes out of my butt whenever indigestion occurs. We were divided into groups of five, or four, whatEVER, and we were each given a newspaper. Then we received a mahjong paper in each group, then we had to pick a theme, and cut out anything relevant to the chosen theme from the newspaper.

I didn't know what the motive was, but trust me, all I could do was sulk. I was in no mood to be around people, much less to cooperate in a group activity! I sulked all the way, knowing that I was kind of pissing some people off. Well, I DIDN'T CARE. I was so mad and frustrated that I wanted to knock my head with my knuckles for even bothering to show up.

And then that's when the teacher came to me, when the activity started. My God I felt like slapping her, literally!

I was reading a book, okay. An ENGLISH book, and she's an ENGLISH teacher. She can't scold me for reading an English book, I thought that was what she bloody wanted? Anyway, she came up to me, and guess what she did next? Haha, she scolded me. I was so bloody humiliated and embarrassed! Sorry for the use of the vulgar words, though. I'm pretty mad enough just thinking about what happened earlier today.

Ey, girl, what are you doing?!?!
I'm reading a bloody book. Do you need glasses?
Might as well you just sit at home and don't come to school in the first place.
FFFYYYYIIIIII, HELLOOOOOO, I WASN'T INTENDING TO SHOW UP IN THE BLOODY SCHOOL IN THE FIRST PLACE IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOUR BLOODY INTERCLASS DEBATE!

Fuck off.

And that's how the scene played. Well, at least that's how it played in my mind at that time. But, in reality, I just kept quiet, for I knew that if I shot back at her I'd be long gone be dragged away to the principal, or the counselling room, whatever.

I honestly felt like saying that to her. Buuut of course not, it was crucial that I contained myself, my anger. See, I'm a good student. And, let me tell you something, I was literally in tears. Don't ask me why, but it just so happens that I was in a very bad mood, mood swings got the best of me, and I was never used to being scolded like that. She made me even madder and I was pissed off beyond the limit. No words could explain how I felt that moment, because I was so humiliated by being scolded by a teacher LIKE THAT, and only once in a blue moon do I get scolded by a teacher like that. With her face like that, the more I felt like slapping her.

Eeeeee my God!

After recess, debate. My class and a few other classes withdrew, since we were short of teammates. It was boring. Yaaaawn.

It's been raining all the way since I got home from school today. I like it, actually. I love the rain, I sincerely admit that. When it rains, I feel so calm and safe in my home. Plus, with the soft pitter-patter of the raindrops, it sounds like a lullaby sung by Mother Nature herself. It sounds so calming, and relaxing, and you only want to go to sleep. I love it when it rains. I honestly don't like it when the sun comes out. I just don't.

A very relaxing moment, right now, as I'm listening to the natural songs of the raindrops, smelling this earthy fragrance that wafts into the air as rain comes pouring down. Yes, at the moment, I am content :)



Monday, October 26
5:52 PM

Ah, yes, the school session earlier today involved a large group of boys from the St. John, grrrreat -.-"

We had the DeepaRaya feast for the morning session today during recess. We started unpacking and setting up the tables by 9.30am, and the best thing is? Us third formers were able to have our feast in the canteen! Usually whenever there's any kind of feast for the morning session we'd have it in class, but since there were some Form 3 St John boys coming, we had to have it at the canteen.

I think about 30 of them (the boys) came. They joined us in our feast, but they sat at a separate place so that we wouldn't mix up. We sat along the long space of the canteen while the boys sat at the back of the canteen, somewhere secluded. Luckily, each class had to contribute at least one food item to the boys' table, so that they won't have to come to each table for food. I thought that was pretty good, or else I'd feel downright uncomfortable.

The boys' coming to CBN for the feast were followed by a few events, none of which have happened before the boys got there. Inevitably, some girls were seeking attention. Menggelabah, that's the word.

And then that's when I started to get annoyed and revolted. How immature is it to throw food, or smear the icings from cakes in that case, at your friends' faces? Um, I say it is very immature. You're bloody fifteen and yet you act like a bloody five-year-old who can't eat properly. It was so repugnant, I tell you! I mean, coming from a person like me who gets annoyed too easily, I say it was very repugnant.

As I sat down at a different table with a handful of my classmates, I watched as the other girls were throwing food at each other, smearing chocolate icings and creams at each other's faces. I pictured myself with a huge bucket of blackcurrant juice, or any kind of drink with dark colours, and I pictured myself pouring it all on them. Well, they wanted to get dirty kan, so I'm sure they wouldn't mind a bit of colour, heh heh. I am such an accomplice of cynicism >.<

Macam tak pernah nampak budak lelaki la pulaaaak. To be honest, when I see boys, Ima like yeaaaaaa whatever. And when they tend to stare at me or something, Ima be like, what are you staring at, punk? Eheh. You can tell me I'm a big talker, but I never lie about these things.

Anyway, I was watching the girls throwing food at each other and I was so embarrassed. It gave such a bad reputation to the school and I wondered what the teachers were thinking. I just thought it was so immature of them to throw food at each other, with boys around to boot! I mean, seriously, if you wanna get all excited to see the opposite sex, get a haircut and deflate your boobs and go to a boys' school, sheesh. Then you can see alllll the boys you want -.-"

All in all, I had a nice day, in spite of receiving a really cute bracelet from Putri when she was in Malacca, and also playing an exciting game of Speed with Wawin and Uno with my other classmates. Haha, I think that was the best part of my day :)



Friday, October 23
6:03 PM

Ugh, had a pretty boring day today, despite the fact that I was "entertained" during Everybody's Day in school earlier -.-" Eheh.

Moodswings are attacking me again, which meant that I was more vulnerable to be pissed off. One moment I was laughing, and the next, I was moody. That happens all the time. And you know what? It sucksssssss.

I attended school today since I had to get my certificate up on stage, or else they'd dispose of my certificate if I couldn't come up with a valid reason on why I didn't show up in school. What a waste of money, with all the papers and the printing and all. Eh, no, wait, it wasn't a waste of money, actually. Since the paper was thin and the surface was like the normal, smooth surface of a piece of white A4 paper. The paper was so cheap and it was prone to be crumpled! Hah, I bet the certificate is already crumpled in my bag right now.

We had to wait for one stinkin' hour in the frikkin' hall just for the 'guest of honor' to arrive. Man, why can't they be punctual? What are we? Lifeless robots? Pfft. Knowing me, I couldn't even stand to sit quietly without fidgeting or sighing in frustration for five minutes. Luckily I'd brought something to read in the hall while waiting for the guest to arrive. I was starting to feel claustrophobic and stressed out and my legs felt like as if they were about to fall off. My blood circulation wasn't pretty awesome when I sat down for what seemed like an eternity.

To make things worse, the two girls sitting in front of me were so, SO ANNOYING! One was so irritatingly noisy, and the other one was sitting soooo close to my front even though she had a LOT of frikkin' space in front of her! Hello, there are guided lines embedded into the floor cement for the students to sit! She took up like literally half of my space too when she already had one ginormous space in front of her. And when she switched into the position where she hugged her knees and leaned back, I could literally knock her back with my head without even moving my position.

And the girl next to her? Oh, kept talking and talking and talking like there's no tomorrow to talk. She was talking excessively loud, unnecessarily loud, and man did it drive me up the walls! I was starting to lose my mind and I just felt like sewing her frikkin' mouth shut, literally! So inconsiderate, so selfish. I was so pissed off that I could practically feel steam rising into the air from the top of my head.

I was glad when the ceremony ended. It was sooooo long! Then it was recess...I only had a few sips of cold water since the canteen was packed with students wanting to buy food. I was too lazy to line up, and I wasn't that hungry, anyway.

Oh, I spoke too soon. By the time it was 11:30am, when I was sitting in the hall with my classmates, waiting for the 'concert' to start, I felt a tight knot in my intestines and it grumbled. Great. I was hungry.

The concert for Everybody's Day this year was pretty boring, except for a few performances. I prefer last year's performances, they were so hilarious that everyone kept quiet to witness the performances. This year OK la, good and bad performances. Nyeh.

I'm so glad school is over for the week. I dread to wake up in the morning and then feeling like going back into the sweet, sweet oblivion of sleep again. I can't wait for tonight! Apparently my mother signed up for this privilege thing, and she received a lot of coupons with discounts and complimentary rooms/meals at one of the most expensive hotels in KL. And with that being said, my sister has booked a room at La Meridien for tonight, for free! Thanks to the coupon, heh heh.

So I'm going to Meridien tonight! Yippee!



Thursday, October 22
4:24 PM

Wow, I had such an adventurous day today. Earlier yesterday, I had intended to not show up at school today, buuuut I went against my intention. I still showed up at school, even though I was dreading waking up in the morning and I just felt like going back into the sweet oblivion of sleep.

There was some gotong-royong today, as planned. My classmates and I were chaperoned by Pn Norhaida (is that how you spell her name?) and Cik Siti Nor. They were pretty cool, actually. I've always thought of Pn Norhaida as this vicious lioness since she's always so strict, haha. But really, she's a nice teacher! Anyway, we had to do our part in the gotong-royong thing at the old SPBT room, which I've never been to.

I must say that I didn't regret going to school today. I ventured into some of the old parts of the school that I never even knew existed, all thanks to Pn Norhaida for showing us, hehe. The old SPBT room was freaky. It was dusty and covered in muck, and you know what? There was a huge staircase at the back of the room leading to parts unknown. I was so, so curious to see what was at the bottom of the staircase! When I peered down, there was another set of staircase leading downwards. Lagi lah curious!

The staircase was such a cool sight to see. I mean, it was dark and creepy at the bottom, and the stairs were dusted with dust and spider webs and God knows what else there could be! I wanted so much to venture down the staircase, just to see where it would lead me to.

Our task in the SPBT room was pure villainy! There were lots of books and old documents dating up to the 80s on a few tables, all covered with dust and grime. Files and papers were scattered everywhere, all stacked up and tied with a rafia string. And you know what we had to do? Reorganize it! Put it back on the bookshelves! Stat! Simply cruel, I tell you. I mean, come on! Why was it even our job to REORGANIZE THE DOCUMENTS? I thought the clerks were supposed to do that!!! We were really marinating ourselves in sweat and grime and dust.

While I was helping Liyana sorting out some of the files and documents and place them into the bookshelves, I came across a very precious file. Not just any file, it was my mother's file! She used to work as a teacher in CBN, waaaay back in the 80s. It was dated 1981, and I leafed through the documents in the file. Lots of bank slips, and many others I didn't even bother to understand. In 1981, her first child was only a year old. I was so amazed that I found her file that I just felt like taking it home and showing it to my mother. Haha.

From this gotong royong thing, I learned that our school has a lot of secret passageways. A lot of locked rooms, a lot of staircases leading underground, a lot of abandoned rooms branching from other rooms...there are a lot of places in our school that are unknown by us CBN students. It was creepy and eerie, really, but at the same time it's cool because man, which other school has a unique architecture like ours?

Pn Norhaida showed us a really creepy room, heh heh. Beside the old SPBT room, there was another door but it was unlocked. It's not really abandoned, just rarely being used. So she showed us that room, and guess what? There were MORE rooms branching from that particular room. It was a toilet, actually, but one of the doors in the toilet led to a bedroom. A bedroom! How cool is that? As I went deeper down the small passageway that led the toilet to another room, I came across what I assumed used to be a bedroom, which are now stacked with old registers owned by the teachers. There was even an antique air-conditioner, and bloody hell, the room was cold but the air-cond wasn't even turned on! And then, another passageway, go figure. It led to another bedroom, situated just above the restroom we often use.

That room was freaky. There was a tiny bed, with a dusty mirror hanging opposite the bed. There were old hangers hanging from the bedpost, and many other stuff. There was even an old mattress lying on the bed. I imagined the room being used way back when, still clean and pristine and occupied by a solid person, if you know what I mean. Now? I'm guessing that person is see-through. Heh heh. Just my wild imagination taking over.

There are so many places in the school compounds that are unknown and are yet to be discovered. I am an annoyingly curious person, and knowing that my school has a lot of secret rooms and passageways just makes me want to go and find out about them! Heh, and I thought I knew my school pretty well -.-"

Oh well.



Wednesday, October 21
9:43 PM

Step. Away. From. My. Friend.

Bitch. Bitches. Bitcheroos.

Can you just stop acting all goody friendly in front of her face and then stab her in the back with a knife? It somehow annoys the heyyel out of me! My God, if nak tikam belakang orang pun at least buat lah discrete sikit! You think you're so cool lah, showing off your outrageously putrid talent at acting.

At least she's a thousand times smarter than you freaks. At least she uses up her brain more than you do. Hah! I honestly don't freaking know (and it bugs me to death) why you even bother to speak to her while putting on a totally fake and slap-able friendly face, and then resume your unpaid jobs to stab her in the back when she's not looking. Stupid. Oh I'm sorry, no wonder a lot of knowledge doesn't seem to stick in your empty head! They all come back out when you speak of people negatively! Sorry, I don't usually speak badly of people's knowledge because I highly respect that, but you seem to insult our intelligence [without you even realizing it] when you think we're not knowing what you're talking about us.

Lucky girl, that friend of mine. Such a strong person. Never seemed to cry about you morons, and the furthest she's been to was to just express her anger at me and the rest of us who are considered FRIENDS to her, not some crackpots.

Memang patut kau terasa. Siapa makan cili dia terasa pedas la kan? Haha.

Oh, sila la print blog post ini :) At least my blog looks waaaaay cooler than yours. Ha ha ha. Hey, didn't say I have the coolest blog, but it IS cool when it's compared to yours. Haha. True right? Right!



4:23 PM

Wow, I had such a good lunch today. Mm'mmm! Nasi Kandar Zainul in PJ is the best! Too bad the papodoms were finished >.<

My day went pretty well today. I dreaded the fact that I woke up ten minutes later than usual this morning, corrupting my bangun-mandi-solat-subuh-makan-breakfast schedule every weekday. Fine, still managed to get to school on time. I was so glad that Putri and Ama came today. They didn't come yesterday and I felt so betrayed! Haha, jooooking. Man, they definitely fulfilled my lust for gossips! Hey, I'm a girl, and what do girls do best? Gossip.

It was compulsory for me to attend the Miss Everybody's Day rehearsal this morning, also known as Raptai Hari Penyampaian Sijil. I've been attending both of the rehearsals, yesterday and earlier today. I'll be receiving a certificate this Friday to honor my part as one of the members in the graphic department for the school magazine. Eeep! I'm so proud of my accomplishments :')

The rehearsal today was boring, just like yesterday. Yeah la, they said the rehearsal was going to start at bloody 8am, buuuut of course it started later than that. 8.30am, that was when the emcee announced the "arrival of the guests of honor" and blah dee blah blah. I hate being late! I hate to be delayed because it makes me feel like as if I'd just lost a great amount of time and hey, time is money, people! In all my experiences attending those formal school events, none of the 'guests of honor' arrive on time. Then we'd have to wait...and wait...and wait...and make noise...and get scolded...and then the cycle goes on.

I don't think I'll be going to school tomorrow. There's nothing fun to do tomorrow anyway, apart from the gotong-royong, hahaaa fun -.-" No thanks! Might as well I just waste my time at home reading books!

Nowadays, it's been raining quite a lot. It's raining daily here. And you know what? I love it! Somehow the rain just makes me feel content. I just love to hear the sound of the rain, it's almost like an effortless lullaby sang by Mother Nature, complete with the cooling ambiance! I know I'm probably weird saying this, but just by the presence of clouds in the sky, forming a massive thick blanket of what looks like candy floss, makes me feel peaceful and content. Or in other words, cloudy days make me feel calm. Oh, I just love the rain :)

I'm so craving for some vanilla bubble tea right now! Thanks to Kak Intan, since she introduced me to that delicious flavour-varying tea with tapioca (is it tapioca?) balls in it. Oooh!

I miss my Patapons, too. Sigh. It's been a while.



Saturday, October 17
12:09 PM

Today happens to be my parents' open house...which I didn't know about until a few days ago...which I've already made plans with my friends to go watch a movie.

Okay. It's still cool my parents let me go with my friends today, bless 'em. Well, it wasn't like as if I was informed about it beforehand. Nyeeh.

I'm so not in the mood to entertain people right now. I'm currently in my room, hiding in my own protective sanctuary, not wanting to go and meet people. Hahaaaa. I'm so unsociable, I know. Well, there's nothing to talk about anyway. I'm not much of a person who'd go to a guest and shake their hands without being told to do so, much less start a conversation!

It's not that I'm snobbish, I'm just reserved and unsociable, that's all. I mean, why'd you want to know about my personal stuff, anyway? Ima like, yeaaaaa do I know you? HAHA.

Dah la moodswing datang balik. Sheesh.

And hello, respect tuan rumah sikit boleh tak? Mintak barang macam mintak penyepak.



Friday, October 16
9:13 PM

I am really getting pissed off right now.

First of all, I was such a moron to go and search on Google for the serial code for the unoriginal Adobe Photoshop CS4 installed to this laptop. And then it caused such a havoc on the computer that even though I reinstalled Photoshop so many times, again and again, the same thing comes out when I open the program; License key has expired. Great, all thanks to me for downloading all kinds of weird files onto this laptop, now I can't access CS4 for my graphic designs!!!!!! I've been in front of this laptop for practically the whole day just trying to figure out what the hell went wrong.

Oh, right, the Antivirus on this laptop wasn't updated. Didn't warn me about the Trojans I was downloading. Sheesh. NOW la baru nak bagi tahu ada trojans!

Second, Windows Vista is a whack. My sister installed the CS4 onto her laptop, but she's using Windows XP. Worked fine, no troubles. But when I first installed to this laptop, which uses Windows Vista, ah I faced a lot of problems. Then only la I got to install the program successfully, after so many tries.

Third, RANDOM POP UPS ARE APPEARING ON THE SCREEN! Lots of rubbish!

Thanks to the no-good Antivirus system on this laptop, I've finally quarantined the trojans and viruses embedded in the laptop. Now I'm just figuring out a way to delete them PERMANENTLY. Good thing my sister is a whiz kid, as in, she knows a LOT about computers ;D

I'm so mad. Never, NEVER try to download stupid cracks and serial codes and key generators on the internet. NEVER!!!!! They're filled with unneeded viruses and trojans that can harm the computer, and restrain you from doing certain activities.

And oh, my temper got shorter when I found out that...I CAN'T LOG IN TO MSN! My God! Stupid trojans. Now I'm installing Skype, so that I can contact my sister and ask her for help. I've this program installed to the computer, a TRUSTED program that can enable other computers to access mine. I hope she'll be able to fix this mess.

I'm just so pissed. Now I can't finish my task for the school magazine. The only way I can ever resume my task is to log in to Kakcik's computer and do it from there, which is impossible since it takes what seems like an eternity to finish one action at a time. And plus, it keeps on switching off when I'm in the middle of doing something! And then I can't access Blogger and Gmail there, which I need (especially Gmail) so that I can send my files to my 'boss', hehe. No offence, Kakcik. That poor thing's old, anyway, haha.

Eeeeyaaaiiiiii!




Thursday, October 15
7:00 PM


I'm pretty much on the move to save Mother Nature right now. After spending about three and a half hours in my room sorting out books and papers and cleaning and wiping and mopping my room, I feel a whole lot satisfied just looking at my neat and tidy room, apart from the huge piles of books and papers on my study table.

I was really marinating myself in sweat, grime, and dust as I was sorting out my dusty bookshelf and all. As I sat down in front of my bookshelf, I was back in memory lane, feeling nostalgic as I looked through some of my bittersweet moments written on bits and pieces of leftover papers. I felt sad, really, to dispose of the unused papers which contain some of my memories, but well, I have to do it, and I did.

After about two hours of sitting on the floor, surrounded by lots of books and papers that I don't use anymore, I finally came up with a few stacks of recyclable items, as shown in the pictures above. I felt very proud of myself by just looking at the stacks of recyclable books and papers on my desk. I mean, think about how many trees I can save! (And the amount of money I'll get paid, heh heh)

Oh, my room is so clean now!

I can't wait for Saturday, though. I'm finally going to go out with a couple of my classmates to go watch a movie after so, so many months of not going out with my friends. Hehe.

Life is good, I can earnestly say that :)



Wednesday, October 14
10:24 PM

I am so happy and ecstatic that it's criminal!

Hihi, I laughed a LOT today!

Oh yes, life is good :)



Tuesday, October 13
11:25 AM

I had KH today. It was...

Ah the hell with it.....

PMR.

IS.

OVER!

Eh, wait wait, can the font get any larger?

Oh wait yes, it can.

Lemme start again...

PMR.

IS.

OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!

And I'm ecstatic! Haha. Habis paper KH, terus pergi Midvalley with Abah and Barnickle xD



Monday, October 12
6:03 PM

I'm in looove *drools* with Romeo. Alfa Romeo. Hehe. Heheheh. Hehehehehehe.


Ooh, Brera :)

I want. I want! :D



Friday, October 9
10:12 AM

I'm ecstatic. Hehe.

Oh, the geography paper was fun today, I mean it. I couldn't help but smile at myself as I did that paper because it was so easy! Oh, I don't know how to express my gratitude!

Two more days to go, three more subjects.

Hopefully Sejarah will be as easy as Geography. And I hope the Maths and KH papers will be nice to me, just like Geography. So far, my favourite paper now is Geography, because it was easy. Hehe.

8A's AMIN!



Thursday, October 8
5:43 PM

Okay, first of all, Science Paper II was major bollocks! I don't know which group of morons set up that paper, but trust me, it's all bollocks. And as for English Paper II Section C? HAHA I don't know which pea-brain came up with that.

Yeah, it sucked. You know why? Because it was totally different. The Science paper was hard, I kid you not. I've been majoring in Science since I was in form one, but now...? EEE. I THINK I'll get an A for Science for PMR, I hope. I mean, my answers were darn relevant and coherent, and plus, they said that we could write our answers IN OUR OWN SENTENCES. Who doesn't understand my sentences tu memang kepala hotak kecik la.

For Paper II in Science, nothing about the human body showed up. I thought the main reason to study science was all about the human body? I mean, health is the primary reason you study science, no? Then again, I'm never right, am I? GAAAHHH, It was all electricity, a bit of stability, some combustion thing, and yeah the worst part of all, POLLINATION OF PLANTS. God do I hate that topic! Yes, I've studied all those topics, but the paper was asking for answers that were, I promise you, not in the textbook! And they say "REFER TO THE TEXTBOOK". Bollocks.

As for English Paper II Section C?

Write about a relationship between friends in the novel you've chosen.

What? I'm sorry, what? Who gave birth to THAT? I kid you not that question has NEVER came out in PMR. It's usually about the theme, or the settings, or the characteristics...those stuff. But NEVER about a relationship between friends? I was like, What do you WAAAAAAAAAANT???!!!

Oh I'm pissed alright. I'm beyond pissed. It wasn't what we had expected it would be. It's something completely different, and I'm starting to lose hope here.

But, on the bright side, I think I'm going to torture the examiner who's going to mark my English paper. Haha. I used big words like modernisation and paramour and many others. Jenuh la kau nak open dictionary tu.

EEE I'M SO PISSED MY GODDDDDDDDDD.

If I don't get A for Science, then I'm screwed. It's bye bye Science Stream!!!!!!! Sorry, man, I ain't taking the accounts or the arts stream, I've set my goal and I'm darn determined to get into the science stream.

Oh, Maths, please be nice to me. I need your A!



Wednesday, October 7
5:48 PM

Ohmigooooosh! Look at that! Ain't it cute? :) Just felt like sharing with the world what I'm eating right now. A very sinful, yet so delicious cupcake! Yes, it's a cupcake, topped with a huge dollop of cream. But surprisingly it doesn't taste very heavy, both the cream and the cupcake, and it's not too sweet. The taste is light and it's up to my liking :D

Yeah, I ate that. I ate it aaaalll. That Iman's-fist-size cupcake has gone down my esophagus, riiight down to my tummy. Heh heh.

Noticed my title for this post? Whoops, harap maaf jika anda terasa! Haha.

BOLLOCKS is all I can say for the BM papers today. Especially the last two essays I had to write, what the heck I was crapping about I didn't even know. Felt like punching myself :(

I HATE literature. Never liked it. I'm like, yeaaa okay so this novel is about a dude who blah blah blaaaah. Then comes the synopsis and the characteristics and yadi yadi yada. Major snore-fest, that.

Agama was pretty easy. Hehe. I was literally battling unconsciousness as I was ending the paper. I was soooo sleepy and my eyelids felt like as if there were one-ton-blocks hanging on them. Of course, what I actually studied the night before didn't come out a single thing -.-" Another Bollocks! goes to that. But, yeah, most of the questions were based on commonsense but I struggled a bit on a few questions. I hope I'll get an A for Agama though. My answers were pretty logic and relevant, and I really really really hope the examiner who'll be marking my paper will be a person who'll easily give me scores. Sigh. I hope. The praying doesn't end here (I never stop praying haha)

I have English and Science tomorrow. Ah, at least I can relax a bit tonight. I only need to go over a few short chapters on Science, and plus, the paper will be in the afternoon tomorrow.

Wish me luck!



Tuesday, October 6
3:16 PM

Oh my God, OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!

SEVEN MORE DAYS AND I'M FREE! Heh heh. No more form one two three books, no more exercises to do, no more REVISIONS to do, no more no more no more!

I CANT WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIT!

Hehe. Excitement is bubbling up inside me that I feel so hyper and nuts. Seven more precious days and I'll be free! Seven more FAST days and I'll be out of my cage :)



Monday, October 5
3:32 PM

My first PMR paper will be in less than 48 hours and yet I'm still staring at this screen...See, when you put it this way, '48 hours' sounds faster as opposed to '2 days'. Well, that's good, I guess. Cuz I can't wait for this frikkin' thing to END!

School was awesome today. We spent like an hour to arrange our tables in the hall, due to the complications of how many tables there should be in one row and blah blah blah. I hate my place in the hall. It's too at the back >:(

After arranging our tables, it was time for us to beg for forgiveness from our teachers and hope for their blessings. I hugged and shook hands and apologized to a number of my favourite teachers, including a couple of my teachers back when I was in the afternoon session. Let's see...

Pn. Saadiah, Pn Gan, Pn Norzihan, Encik Azrin and Encik Azra, and then Cik Woon and Pn Nurul and Cik Hani (after literally running around the whole school searching for them), and then Pn Norrizan too, and Pn Siti Raihan, and and and Pn Nurdiana as well. Yeaaahh. Hehe. I hugged Pn Norzihan sooo tight since I missed her a lot. It's sad that she's not teaching us anymore :(

Somehow I feel sort of motivated by my teachers' advices and all. I mean, to hear them saying that they want me to get straight A's for PMR made me feel so motivated to push myself further and beyond to really get those 8 little A's. I would be so, SO euphoric if they mention my name as part of the straight A student on the day I get my results. Eh eh, not if, when. Hehehehehe. AMIN :)

I can't wait to start the paper, seriously. I think I can do it, I know I can. If I believe hard enough, I'll be able to pass PMR with flying colours :)

YAY TOMORROW DAY OFF!

Which means more studying to do. Haha.

Daddehhh, please wake me up after Subuh x)



Friday, October 2
4:41 PM

Oh my God, haha, I feel like laughing. Honestly, honest honest honestly, I never thought I would meet someone, no, wait, a BUNCH of people who are no less than pathetic!

Oh, those immature faces I saw at school just now just made me aggravated. What's their problem anyway? It pisses me off when they stare at my friends and I while we're doing and talking about nothing that concerns them. If I could pop their fake tissue-padded boobs, I would.

It sucks, you know. My mood is constantly influenced by other people's actions, especially theirs.

Case in point; my group of close friends and I were having our recess break this morning. We got the opportunity to get out early, so by 10 us third formers were already eating. I was enjoying my granola bar and I was enjoying chatting and laughing with my friends, when they ruined my mood. Putri informed me that they were sitting at the table next to us, on the other side of the canteen. I turned my head, and caught them staring and laughing and talking about us.

How obvious is it that you are talking about someone when you are looking and staring at them and laughing like mad baboons? Um, yeah, like very obvious. These people were seriously getting on my nerves and I completely lost my mood. I still laughed and joked around with my friends, but they were darn pissing me off.

I don't know what their problem is, I think they're just prejudiced. And insecure. And plainly immature. Haha, honestly, if their IQ is like as high as half my height, tak apa la jugak.

And, and, get this, they're very insecure, I can see that. While my friends and I were eating and laughing, we happened to catch glimpses of them staring at us. Fine, whatever, but that didn't mean that we were talking about them. And, oh, they cooked up the most classic tactic ever to get a piece of what we were talking about. They sent one of their accomplices to walk past right behind us so that the little accomplice would go back to the group, and tell them what we were talking about. Haha, pathetic, right? Well, thing is, WE WEREN'T EVEN TALKING ABOUT THEM. Sooo perasan. I guess that proves how narcissistic they are, no? I mean, perasan in every way. Aha.

I knew they were trying to get what we were talking about. Putri told me, S walked behind us with no motive (except for spying on us) and then she walked back to her table. She stopped right at the end of our table, then turned back. HOW PATHETIC IS THAT? It's so obvious, really, that they were so insecure. I mean, if they weren't as perasan as I thought, why would they even bother about what topic my friends and I were talking about?

Like I said, they're just problematic is all. I don't care if they read this and print it out and show it to everyone, because honestly there's nothing to care about in this matter. I've been back-stabbed so many times that I don't even bother what they want to say about me. I don't care if they want to spit acid on my shoes or stare at me hard or go all "Pahal kau?" at me. Um, yeah, who cares? In the end, you just want to laugh about it.

I'm just so pissed off and annoyed. And I HATE it when they get all sarcastic and mean in front of my friend, Putri. Well, I'm sure enough that they'll know I'm talking about them, since I mentioned Putri. Long story, really. Even the SMALLEST little things they want to make a big deal out of it. And get this, they still treat Putri nicely in front of her face when all along she knows what they've been talking about. It kind of affects me really badly, because I know how it feels like to deal with two-faced liars. Yeah, I've been there.

And the one thing I hate about their grimy attitudes? When they want something from me, they'd be all nice and friendly to me. Behind my back, they'd start talking the shit they get out of their buttholes about me. Oh, Iman, nak stapler? Iman, pinjam pen? Go to hell lah wei. They're so mean, you know? They're like the mafia in our class, hahahah. We'll see who gets the last laugh when we draw caricatures of them in a bad manner. Well, that's what they did!

I honestly don't care what the circumstances are in me posting this post. They can print this out, show to everyone, blah dee blah blah then kutuk kutuk some more, LIKE I CARE.

YOU PATHETIC PREJUDICED BUNCH OF CRAP-TARDS.

Hey hey, do you "kids" even know what "prejudice" means? Hahahahaha.

MEMANG TAK TENTU HALA BETUL. Skejap baik, skejap jahat. Cakap macam tak tentu hala. Memang rempit Melayu classic tu.



Thursday, October 1
7:11 PM

Eee I can't wait for PMR to finish!

THE ANXIETY IS EATING ME ALIIIIVE!



3:55 PM

OMAGAAAAHHHH Paramore's new album is out! Haha. Got it downloaded already :b Gotta love that band, gotta love the singer's HAIR!

We had a "Kaut A" program for BM just now. It was OK, I guess, despite the fact that a few of my friends and I had to go and carry one of the heavy canteen tables into the hall because the teachers wanted to use it -- and we had to do it twice -- and also due to the fact that we had to sit on the floor, which made us all very restless.

I was restless, as far as I'm concerned. I couldn't sit still without having to move and fidget around, but that was a good way to stay awake, I guess. My back and my neck ached like hell, though. Of course, like many people, I couldn't sit cross-legged and remain my posture straight for more than a minute, so I slouched (duh). The slouching made my neck and back hurt, which made me restless, and cranky.

The whole day I spent my time at school I was listening to the BM teachers giving us tips on how to score the BM paper. Especially Paper 2, with all the essays and all (boy do I disdain that part!) Yeah, I guess with all that being said, I might just have the chance to get an excellent result for BM, I hope. For the last exam, I needed only one more mark to receive that A I've been yearning for -.-" Great. Oh well. My trial results don't seem important to me right now. It's not like as if I'm planning to go to boarding school.

I have red bruises on both of my wrists. No, no, don't jump to conclusions yet. I did not slash myself! Gosh, I'm not suicidal! Even though I can be such an emo-wreck sometimes, I'm not like those hardcore emo punks. Haha. I got those bruises from carrying the heavy table just now at school, and since my muscle strength isn't that much to be proud of, the sharp but kind of blunt edge of the table rested on both of my wrists, so that's how I got the bruises. Well, it's red now, and I'm assuming it'll turn into a fair shade of purple anytime soon. Luckily there are no scratches on my wrists, though. Or else you'd think I tried to slash myself -.-"

PMR is in 6 days! Ho yeah. Honestly, I just can't wait to get it over and done with. I can't wait to scream in joy and relief after my last paper, which is KH. After that, hoho, SO LONG TEXTBOOKS!

A thought just occurred to me; when I can drive, I want to drive my sister's red Satria. I don't know, I guess I just love old and sort of like beaten-up things. Not that my sister's car is beaten-up, it's really not. It just looks so sporty and cute and with the extra bumper at the back, it doesn't really look like a rempit's car. Hahaaa. And guess what, that thing is 7 years old and still working fine! Heh heh.

Or I could just drive my other sister's Kelisa ;D

Hooo I can't wait to learn to drive!



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